They Say It's Your Birthday
By: J. D. Rush
Saturday, February 23, 2002
FROHIKE:
"Looosie, I'm home," I announced as I
walked through the front door. I
didn't need to see her to know she was rolling her eyes at the bad Ricky
Ricardo imitation.
"Did you wrap up what you had to at the
Warehouse?" she called out as I was removing my coat and scarf.
I walked into the living room where she was busy at
the computer, apparently surfin' the net.
"Yup. Another
issue in the bag."
She looked me up and down, and did her famous eyebrow
quirk. "Ummm. . . didn't
you forget something, Mel?"
"Hmmm? Oh
yeah." I snapped my
fingers as I went back into the foyer and scooped up the bag I had left on
the sideboard. "Picked up
the milk you asked for."
"No, I was thinking more along the lines of
William?" she explained, patiently.
Slapping myself in the forehead, I groaned pitifully, "OH!
Billy! Dammit, I KNEW I
forgot something."
"Frohike. . ."
The patient tone was gone, replaced with that 'don't screw with me,
flyboy' attitude that women always seem to be floating my way.
"Relax, I left him with the guys.
He and Langly were having such a good time that Ringo asked if he
could sleep over. I didn't see
a problem with that."
That got a slight chuckle from her.
"You know, if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes at the New
Year's party, I never would've been able to picture Langly together with a
baby. They sure seem fond of
each other."
"You're not kidding," I agreed.
"Langly's so crazy about William, he's pissed with me that HE
didn't think of the idea of marrying you first."
"But a sleepover?" she pondered, dubiously.
"I'm not so sure about that.
I mean, what about his things. . .?"
"Not to worry," I cut her off.
"We've got more of his junk over there than here--diapers,
food, clothes, toys. Plus it's
not like the guys are totally incompetent.
They've had a lot of experience with Billy.
And it's only one night--he'll be fine."
She clicked her mouse and logged off her system.
"Well, I wish you had asked first, " she chided, gently.
"I know, and I'm sorry.
Guess I just thought it'd be nice if we could spend some time alone
for your birthday."
That got her attention; her bright blue eyes grew
large as she repeated, "My birthday. . .?"
"Bet you thought I forgot, huh?" I smirked.
"Actually, I didn't know you knew," she
replied, clearly startled.
"You'd be surprised what I know about you, my
dear," I leered.
"No--I wouldn't be surprised in the least.
That's the scary part." She
shut down the computer and, crossing her arms over her chest, turned to
me. "So, while I know I'm
probably going to regret asking this--what are your plans tonight?"
"Uh-uh. . .don't want to spoil it for you.
Let's just start with you getting dressed up and make yourself all
pretty--not that you have much to do there."
I had to hold back a laugh as her cheeks blushed so sweetly.
"Then meet me at the front door in 30 minutes."
"Any clue where we're going?" she asked as
she stood up and started for her bedroom.
"Nope. None
at all. But I think you'll
like it. Now, get
going--time's a-wasting."
* * * * * * * *
She was right on time, but then again, she's always
so meticulous. I was pleased
to see she had chosen a midnight blue taffeta evening dress that really
brought out the color of her eyes. It
was knee-length--to show off her sexy legs--and backless, with tiny
spaghetti straps--to show off her creamy white skin.
She had pulled her hair up into a French-twist, leaving little
whispy curls that spiraled around her ears.
For jewelry, all she bothered with were a simple pair of gold hoop
earrings and her ever-present claddaugh necklace.
In a word, she was breathtaking.
I felt positively troll-like in my standard funeral suit, although
I did add a couple of dapper touches, with one of those red cross-switch
ties instead of a typical necktie, and a thin black silk ribbon bow around
my ponytail instead of the usual elastics, going for that whole romantic/
foppish/Renaissance Man look. (Hey,
it worked for Mel Gibson in 'The Patriot', right?)
As she approached, I clasped my hands to my chest and
pronounced, "Be still my heart, Dana.
You look. . ."
"Hot?" she finished.
"Tasty," I corrected her.
She brought her hand up to those forbidden bright-red
lips and tittered, "You're sick, Frohike."
As I helped her on with her calf-length black cashmere coat, I joked,
"I try my best."
"And you succeed on a grand scale."
I gave her a playful little tap on her backside and
commanded, "Get going, party girl," as I locked up behind us.
"Your car or mine?" she teased as we made
our way out to the street, already knowing the answer.
There was no way on God's green earth I'd step foot in her Volvo.
"No self-respecting child of the 60's would be caught dead in
a Volvo," I once told her. A
while back she had mentioned that she might trade it in for a mini-van. .
.I didn't talk to her for three days.
I take my cars VERY seriously!
I just glared her as I led her to my classic cherry
red 1965 Pontiac GTO. "Get
in, you brat." She had to
move the open package of Saltines and the almost empty boxes of animal
crackers that were scattered on the passenger seat before sitting down.
She just looked up and gave me a knowing smile as I closed the
door.
Okay, so now my secret was out.
She knew how much I loved Billy--enough to let him eat his snacks
in my precious auto, even though he tended to leave sticky spit-covered
crumbs all over the place. You
know, I had seen it happen to many good friends over the years, never
dreaming it could ever happen to me. But
it did.
I had become domesticated.
It didn't happen overnight, and I'd be the first to
say I still have a long way to go, but anyone who knew me would say I had
come a long way already. I've
really cleaned up my act these last few months.
I'd cut down on my drinking and my cussing, wanting to set a good
example to young Billy. And I
had shaped up somewhat in regards to my appearance.
I'm not saying that I'd ever be mistaken for Robert Redford, and I
still had my own 'style' ("somewhere between leather daddy and
skid-row bum", as Langly would say) but I was more concerned with
shaving and making sure my hair looked half-way decent, and other such
whatnots. Hey, I finally had
someone to look good for, a goddess who was my whole reason for being.
The least I could do was look presentable for her.
I didn't have much to work with, but I did the best I could.
Done with my musings, I wandered over to the driver's
side and got in. Slipping the
key in the ignition, I tripped the starter, and the car was instantly
flooded with the sounds of Ernie singing, "Rubber Duckie".
Dana burst into gales of laughter as I frantically fumbled for the
eject button and flung the offending tape into the back seat.
"Real romantic there, Mel," she snorted in
between guffaws.
Oh, yeah, I was just putty in Billy's hands.
Could be worse, I suppose--Dana was stuck with Raffi tapes in her
car.
Once Dana was under control, and we were under way,
things went more smoothly. An
easy silence surrounded us, the only sounds coming from the Sinatra
Saturday show playing on the radio. (MUCH
easier on the ears than
Sesame Street
.) I knew Dana was extremely
curious about where we were going, but she bit her tongue--well, for a
while at least. Finally her
curiosity got the best of her and she blurted out,
"Frohike, if you made me get all dressed up to go grab a
couple of chili dogs and some strings of bowling, I'll have to kill you.
You do know that, right?"
"I could never do that, hon," I assured her
with a wink. "It's league
night." At her annoyed
huff, I quickly added, "Don't worry. . .you'll like it.
I promise."
My answer did little to satisfy her.
I could feel the tension radiating from her as she stewed in the
passenger seat. If there's one
thing Dana hates, it's a mystery. I
think if she could have, she would've put a gun to my head and demanded
the information. Luckily, it
didn't come to that as I pulled up in front of our destination.
"Frohike. . .what are you doing?" she asked, clearly
bewildered.
"Taking you for dinner," I answered.
"Isn't that obvious?"
She practically squeaked, "This is Antonelli's
Ristorante!"
"Yeah, I know."
"It's one of the most exclusive restaurants in DC--not to mention one
of the most expensive," she expanded.
"Sure beats the bowling alley and a chili dog,
huh?" I joked.
"Mel, you can't afford this," she insisted.
I turned to look at her in the faint light of the car
panel and asserted, "Dana. It's
your birthday. I want to do
something nice for you." Then
I added, "Besides, they're supposed to have great shrimp
scampi."
"But. . ." she tried to argue.
"But. . .if you don't get your behind in gear, we're going to forfeit
our reservation," I interrupted her, as the valet was approaching the
car. "And it took me
three weeks to get it!"
* * * * * * * * *
Once I had checked our coats, the maître d' ushered
us to a secluded table towards the back of the restaurant.
The whole place was dimly lit inside, as most of the light came
from candles and a roaring fireplace.
It created a very romantic atmosphere, something that was further
enhanced by the small live combo playing soft dinner jazz unobtrusively on
a stage near the dance floor. I
felt as out of place as Jimmy at a MENSA meeting.
I noticed almost everyone watched us as we made our
way to our table. It was easy
to sense their jealousy since I was escorting the most beautiful woman in
the joint, and I could almost hear their thoughts:
'What in the world is SHE doing with HIM?'
Couldn't blame them really--I found myself thinking the same thing
sometimes.
Hell, many of them probably thought Dana was my
daughter. I can't even count
the number of times we've heard people refer to Billy as my 'adorable
grandson'. The first couple of
times were kinda funny, and we had a good laugh about it when we got home.
Then the next few times we tried to correct the mistaken
well-wishers, which just lead to embarrassment all the way around and made
things worse for everyone. Now
we just grit out teeth, thank them, and clear out as quickly as possible.
But then I guess it beats the other obvious
assumption--that Dana was rented arm candy, if you catch my drift.
Either way, I was determined not to let it ruin this
special night. I placed my
hand at the base of Dana's back (subtly letting the spectators know she
was at the very least my date) and helped steer her to our destination.
If Dana felt any of the anxiety within me, she didn't
reveal it. I think she was too
busy taking in her surroundings (once an investigator, always an
investigator) and probably counting off in her head how much this was
going to end up costing me. She
gave me a grateful little smile as I pulled her chair out for her, and
quietly thanked the maître d' when he left us alone with our menus.
Before I could even open it, though, the wine steward
advanced on us. I listened to
his shtick, as he rattled off vintage wines that would cost more than a
year at Harvard for Billy, then I ordered a bottle of Merlot I had read
about on the 'net which had gotten pretty good reviews.
The cultured punk-ass gave us a snotty, "Excellent choice,
sir," (read: "You cheap bastard!") then stalked off to fill
my request. I caught Dana
watching the scene in amusement before going back to looking over her
dinner choices; I picked up my own menu to do the same.
One look at it told me that my S.O. might have been
right this time. Man, the
prices were so bad they weren't even listed!
Never a good sign. (If
you have to ask the price, you can't afford it.) But it was for Dana, and
it was a special night, and the sky was the limit.
We studied the entrees for a few minutes until Dana
finally settled on the Chicken Piccata with bow-tie pasta.
I had to give her credit--she didn't go with something cheap, like
a salad, which would have made me look bad in front of the waiter (yup, he
IS a cheap bastard!), nor did she go for the filet mignon or lobster,
which would have put me in the poor-house.
Dana Scully was all class.
By the time our waiter arrived, we were ready:
chicken for Dana, shrimp scampi for me.
(Hey, if I was going to go broke on this meal, I was getting a
taste of that famous scampi!) When
I placed the order in Italian, I saw the admiration on my wife's face and
couldn't help but laugh, "Don't be so impressed--I coulda just
ordered Chef Boyardee Beef-a-Roni for all I know."
The waiter thanked us for our order, and headed off to get our
appetizers. (Clams Casino. .
.I figured what the hell? I'd
probably be filing for bankruptcy after tonight anyway.)
While we wouldn't know for a bit if I had messed up
the dinner order, at least I got the wine right.
I'm no expert, but from the small sample the steward poured me to
taste, I knew I had picked a winner--dark, rich, and strong, like a good
wine should be. He poured us
each a glass, and left the bottle with us.
Dana took a lady-like sip from her glass and smiled, a look of
surprised pleasure on her pretty face.
Chalk one up for the Fro-miester.
"So, what story were you so busy working on
today?" she asked, taking another sip of wine.
"Front page exclusive," I confided.
"We have evidence that the collapse of Enron was because it
had been channeling funds to the Al-Quida network in exchange for false
stock tips, subsequently resulting in the current world-wide
recession."
She just blinked those big blue eyes once, then
twice, before commenting, "That sounds a little far-fetched, Frohike,
even for you guys."
"Hey, don't be so sure.
Remember a little scandal in the 80's called Contra-gate?"
"I'm surprised you weren't able to work the
Olympic figure skating scandal into it," she chuckled.
"What do you think Byers is working on right
now?" I quipped.
She studied me for a moment, clearly trying to decide
whether I was joking or not. When
she concluded (correctly) that I wasn't, she simply sighed, "You
know, Mulder was right about you guys--your ideas ARE downright
spooky."
"Coming from him, I'll take that as a
compliment," I shot back.
"Well, just make sure you grab an extra issue
for me--I might actually read it for a change."
I discreetly stuck out my tongue at her, which caused her to
giggle--just as discreetly. She
covered it up by taking another small drink of her wine and gazing
longingly the couples on the dance floor.
When she turned again to me, I knew the question before she even
asked it: "Do you want to
dance, Mel?"
I had discovered New Year's Eve how much my wife
loves to dance, but I also knew she probably never had much chance to in
her life. At least not much in
recent years anyway. "After
dinner," I promised her. "Our
appetizers should be out any minute now, and besides, we already have our
drinks." At her blank
look, I elaborated, "You shouldn't leave your glass unattended--you
never know what could be slipped into it when you're not looking."
She nodded solemnly.
"You know, you're right. It's
been a while since I've had to be on 'full-systems alert'.
Guess I'm out of practice in regards to my survival
instincts."
"Just second nature to me to constantly be on my
toes." I saw the smirk
cross her full lips so I snipped, "And no, that wasn't an opening for
any short jokes."
The smile I got that time was broad, full of blinding
white teeth. She took another
sip of her wine and replaced the glass on the table; playing with the
delicate crystal stem she replied more seriously, "It's so easy
sometimes to forget the way things used to be--always looking over my
shoulder, always feeling like I was in danger.
These last few months have been the calmest, most stable I can
remember in a long time." She
reached out and took my hand in hers.
"You make me feel safe, Mel.
And I have to admit--it's a good feeling."
I felt my heart swell with pride and joy.
Bringing her hand up to my lips, I tenderly kissed it, saying,
"Anything for you and William."
Her hand gently caressed my cheek and I found myself
melting into her touch. She
opened her mouth to say something, but just then our waiter arrived with
our clams, effectively cutting off whatever she was about to tell me.
* * * * * * * * * * *
We were each working on our second glass of wine when
our dinners arrived. I had to
smile as Dana took a bite of her pasta and gave a tiny ecstatic moan.
"Good?" I asked, unnecessarily.
She nodded enthusiastically.
"Mmmm. Wait 'til
you try it."
Well, I didn't need to be told twice.
I dug into my own meal, and whole-heartedly agreed with her
assessment. This dinner might
eventually cost more than my first car, but the food had more than lived
up to the hype.
It was so good, in fact, that I had a hard time
remembering where we had left off in our conversation.
Seeing Dana wasn't jumping in to pick up the thread, I started a
new one in between bites. "So,
is the job getting any better?" I
knew she was having a hard time adjusting, but she didn't talk about it
much. I had the feeling she
didn't want to burden me with her troubles.
If only she would understand that she could NEVER be a burden to
me.
She swallowed her biteful of chicken before answering, "Somewhat.
I miss the excitement of being out in the field more than I thought
I would."
"My wife--the adrenaline junkie," I teased.
"Well, I don't miss getting shot at," she
corrected. "And there are
certainly cases I would just as soon forget."
"Like the flukeman?" I supplied.
"Definitely the flukeman," she agreed.
"Oh, and I can also live without some of those fleabag motels
Mulder always used to find. . .not to mention all the greasy-spoons we'd
end up eating in." She
pointed to her plate, "Now THIS is real food!"
"Well, just don't get used to it," I told
her. "I love ya, baby,
but we'll probably be eating ketchup sandwiches for a month after
tonight."
Popping a bow tie into her mouth, she gave me a big
smile and said, "It'll be worth it."
After a moment, she put her fork down, and sighed, "You know,
I think I miss the hands-on work the most.
There is so much I learned out there.
I got to see and experience things that I could have never dreamed
of."
She paused to take a drink of her wine before
continuing, "The saneness of what I'm doing now is a nice change of
pace, but I wish I had more students who were actually interested in
pathology and forensics and not just curious about my work on the
X-Files."
"Well, that's only natural," I noted.
"The nature of your past assignment makes it interesting and
unique and open to questions."
"I know," she conceded.
"I guess I had hoped the novelty of it all would have worn out
by now, but they just seem to be even nosier than ever.
And if one more person calls Mulder 'Spooky'. . ."
She stabbed viciously at some pasta on her plate, the gesture not
lost on me.
"You should be flattered, actually," I
commented.
That gave her pause, and she looked up at me.
"How so?"
"You two are legendary at the Bureau," I said, stating common
knowledge.
She cast her eyes back downwards and shook her head
modestly. "Mulder, maybe.
But not me."
"Don't sell yourself short, Dana," making my point by shaking my
fork at her. "You were an
exceptional agent. And you're
a fantastic mom. And you're
going to be a helluva teacher."
The right side of her mouth quirked in a half-smirk, "Aren't you just
a bit prejudiced?"
"Maybe," I acquiesced, "but you know
what they say: some people are
born great, others have greatness thrust upon them."
I paused before adding, softly, "You were definitely destined
to be great."
Her gentle blue eyes alighted on me, and I felt my heart flip at the flush
that hit her cheeks. If she
only knew how beautiful she is when she blushes like that.
To hide her embarrassment, she picked up her glass and took a sip
of her wine. Suddenly, out of
nowhere, she asked me, "Do you really believe in destiny, Frohike?
That if I had never been teamed up with Mulder, I wouldn't be
sitting here talking to you? Or
do you think we were fated--preordained, even--to meet one day?"
You know, that had never occurred to me--the utter
randomness of our lives. I
mean, everything that I had become could be traced to that one odd day
back in 1989 when Susanne Modeski had walked into that convention center.
Because of her, I met Byers. . .and because of them both we had
first encountered Special Agent Fox Mulder.
And through Mulder, I had met, and fallen in love with one Agent
Scully.
Whew! Now
THAT's a head trip for you!
"What *I* think is that you have had enough wine for tonight," I
kidded, not used to this philosophical side of my friend.
"But I have to say that if it was the work of higher powers,
I'd like to thank the Big Man upstairs."
(And a shout out to Ms. Modeski, while I was at it.
Or Holly Coleman. Or
whatever her name was now.)
At that, she gave me a smile that lit up her whole
face and shined in her eyes. "Yeah,
me, too," she whispered, and went back to her dinner.
* * * * * * * * * * *
When the time came, she refused dessert, but I
ordered a slice of 'Mocha Mania' cake for myself.
She kept looking around the restaurant suspiciously, until she
started giving me the creeps. Finally
I asked her, "Dana, are you okay?"
But she didn't answer me; she just continued to sweep those alert
baby blues of hers across the room.
She didn't calm down until the cake was brought to
the table and placed in front of me with zero fanfare, along with a small
carafe of coffee. Only then
did she inform me, "Sorry, I was afraid you were going to have the
wait staff come out with a cupcake singing 'Happy Birthday'," she
admitted, sheepishly.
"More like, For She's a Jolly Good Fella',"
I informed her. "There's
still a copyright on 'Happy Birthday'.
But I'm sure if I slip 'em an extra fiver they'll be willing to. .
."
"Don't you dare!" she stated emphatically.
"Not unless you want to be sleeping in your car tonight."
I grinned. "That's
what I thought. So how about
this instead?" I pulled a
single candle out of my coat pocket, stuck it in the cake, and lit it.
Pushing the cake closer to her, I said, "Make a wish."
She thought hard about it for a few seconds, then puckered up and
blew out the candle. "So,
what did you wish for?" I pressed.
Shaking her head, she smirked, "Oh, no--if I tell you, it won't come
true."
"Fine. Be
that way," I baited playfully. I
really wanted to know, but if it would lessen the chances of it coming
true, I could wait. Brandishing
the dessert fork, I handed it to her and declared, "Birthday girl
gets the first taste." Didn't
even get an argument from her. I
took my coffee spoon and joined her; soon we had devoured the heavenly
pastry.
As Dana was licking the last of the frosting from her
fork, I announced, "Okay, so we've had the birthday dinner, the
birthday cake, and the birthday wish. . . now all we need is a birthday
gift." I reached into the other coat pocket, pulled out a little
black velvet box, and slid it across the table to her.
"Frohike. . ." she sighed dramatically,
even as she reached for it. "You
shouldn't have." She
carefully flipped open the cover to reveal the diamond ring sitting
inside. It was something that
had always been in the back of my mind since we had gotten hitched
(diamonds ARE a girl's best friend, after all), and I've looked everywhere
for the perfect one. When I
saw this one in a jeweler's window a couple of weeks earlier, I knew my
search was over--all I had to do was wait for the perfect moment to give
it to her.
The setting was simple: a half-caret round diamond
flanked by two smaller ones. Nothing
gaudy--just stunning and different and elegant.
Just like my Dana. She
stared at it, open-mouthed for a full minute.
"Frohike. . .?" she said again quietly, her voice
catching on my name.
I quickly explained, "Well, we weren't engaged
long enough to get you a ring before we got married, so…"
"I. . .I can't accept this," she declared
definitively, closing the cover and pushing it back to me.
"It's too much money."
"But Dana. . ." I began before she cut me
off.
"Look, Mel--I don't know what bank you robbed to
afford tonight, and quite frankly, I don't WANT to know.
But whatever you did. . ."
I stopped her in mid-rant.
"Honey, it's okay. I
just decided to take your advice."
"About what?" she inquired, curiously.
Taking a deep breath, I revealed, "I. . .I sold
one of my patents."
She gasped. "Oh
my God! The diaper disk?"
"No, not that one.
An experimental car-tracking device I developed a while back.
I called it the Fro-jack."
"Do I want to know WHY you needed a car-tracking
device?" she snidely asked.
"Probably not.
But I made a little bit of money off of it.
Enough for tonight, and some spare change in the bank."
"How much spare change, Frohike?" she
inquired.
"If I tell you, I'm afraid you'll only love me
for my bank account." I
took a sip of coffee and whispered, "$5000."
She almost choked on her own sip of coffee.
"Five thou. . ."
"Not so loud," I scolded, with a smile.
"They'll want a bigger tip."
"Oh my God!" she squealed, delightedly.
"Frohike, that's wonderful!"
"He, uh, the guy I sold it to, was quite happy
with it. Wants to look over
some of my other stuff, too. There's
no guarantee, but maybe I can bring some extra money into the
household."
She sat stunned for a moment before stammering,
"I. . .Mel. . .I don't know what to say."
Voicing my biggest anxiety, I queried, "Are you
proud of me?"
She was absolutely glowing.
"Very proud."
"Then you'll keep the ring?" I asked,
hopefully.
She looked down at the little box on the table and,
nodding her head in the affirmative, gingerly reached out for it.
"I would be privileged."
She took the ring out of its box and handed it to me.
"Will you do the honors?" she asked, shyly.
My hands were shaking as I carefully slipped it on
her finger; I brought her dainty hand up to my lips and gently kissed it,
whispering, "Happy birthday, Dana."
"It certainly is," she beamed, unshed tears
sparkling in her spell-binding eyes as she stared at the ring on her
finger. "It's so
beautiful, Mel. . .just like something I would have chosen.
I don't know how to thank you."
"You already have, my dear," I told her.
"The day you said, 'I Do'."
She shot me 'The Look', and muttered,
"Frohike--that was the most disgustingly sappy thing I think you've
ever said."
"Sober, yeah," I agreed.
With a tolerant shake of her head, she remarked,
"This is without doubt the best birthday I have ever had.
Of course now I'll have to try to outdo it for yours.
When is it anyway?"
I tried to brush her off, "Doesn't matter."
"Of course it is," she insisted.
"Please tell me."
Knowing she'd keep at it until she got the
information she wanted I reluctantly answered, "November 9th."
"MEL! Why
didn't you tell me?" she admonished.
I just shrugged my shoulders.
"It's not important. Really.
Don't even acknowledge it anymore."
"But. . .now I feel bad," she pouted.
"You went through all this and I didn't do anything for
you."
<Oh, if she only knew.
Well, maybe it was time to enlighten her.>
"Do you remember the night 'The Godfather' was on TV, and I
asked you to watch it with me? You
said you were busy, but you ended up making us a batch of microwave
popcorn and joined me anyway?"
She gave me an puzzled look.
"You mean, that was. . .?"
"Uh-huh. Now
tell me. . .how could my birthday get better than that?"
"Like this."
And with that, she stood up, leaned over the table, and kissed me
tenderly. When we parted, she
took my hand, pulling me up as well. "C'mon,
'El Lobo'--you promised me a dance."
* * * * * * * * * * * *
Needless to say, one dance turned into a dozen.
Oh man, you should have seen the envious looks I got for every guy
in the place. Well, eat yer
hearts out, boys--she was all mine. In between spins around the dance
floor, we sat and talked over a couple more cups of coffee and shared
another slice of 'Mocha Mania' cake. We
both seemed to be relishing our time alone together--it was the first time
we had been out just by ourselves since getting married.
Our first date, if you will. And
it didn't seem like either of us wanted it to end.
The night was wonderful, but it flew by far too fast.
Before I knew it, we were back home, and I was helping her off with
her coat. She turned to me in
the vestibule and smiled shyly. "Thank
you, Mel. This was one of the
best nights of my life." The
next thing I knew she was in my arms, and I was kissing her.
We've never talked about the kiss at New Year's.
And likewise, the one on Valentine's Day.
Both times, I felt less resistance from her, more enthusiasm.
In fact, she had almost seemed surprised when I pulled away from
her the last time, almost as if she expected, WANTED, it to continue.
I had been sure it was just my fevered imagination. . .
Until now.
This kiss was explosive.
That's the only word I have for it.
Dana's lips were unlike any I have ever kissed.
Hot and sweet and so soft as to be unreal--the passion behind them
was pure and dynamic, yet almost tentative, almost as if she was afraid of
unleashing her full potential. Not
even Mykita at her most volcanic could compare.
Dana's kisses teleported me to a place even
Paradise
would envy.
I felt her hands wrap around my neck, her fingers
entangling themselves in my ponytail, as mine slid over her slim waist and
down her shapely hips. I
wanted to pull away, determined to honor our agreement, but my lovely Dana
was making my resolve dissolve, and when her tongue slipped between my
lips, I was lost forever.
Not content to let her have the upper hand, I wrapped
my arms around her waist and pulled her in closer; she pressed her body to
me, molding herself to me, moaning softly into my mouth.
I felt myself harden as years of waiting and dreaming seemed on the
verge of coming to an end. Somewhere
in the back of my mind I worried that she was doing this out of gratitude
because she was thankful for the ring and for the nice birthday dinner.
It didn't mean to her what it meant to me--it never could.
But experiencing the fire that burned beneath the cool exterior of
Dana Scully soon put those anxieties to rest.
If she was faking this, give the girl an Oscar.
We were still locked in our impassioned embrace when
the phone started to ring. I
thanked the Powers Above when she decided to let the machine pick it up,
but when we heard the panicked voice on the other end, the kiss, and the
spell, were instantly broken:
"Scully? Frohike?
It's Langly. Pick up.
Oh, God. . .it's William. . ."
That's as far as he got when Dana practically hurdled the sofa to reach
the phone. "Langly?
It's me," she proclaimed breathlessly, due to a combination of
our kiss and her athletics. "What's
going on? What's wrong with
William?"
I was pacing around as Dana listened to Ringo, frustrated that I couldn't
hear his end of the conversation and having no idea what the hell was
happening. Suddenly I saw my
wife's stiff shoulders slump a bit, the tension draining from her.
"What's his temperature, Langly?"
A beat, then, "Well, take it."
Another beat. "There
should be a rectal thermometer somewhere in his stuff."
Another pause. "Yes,
I said rectal." One more
pause before she huffed, "Put Byers on the line."
She went through the same spiel with John, then there
was a long silence from her side, so I figured Abbott and Costello were
following her directions. I
knew the moment they were back on the line because Dana's brow furled and
she mumbled, "100.8? Well,
that's not good, but it's not bad, either.
He may have just eaten something that didn't agree with him, or
maybe he picked up a small bug. Give
him some watered down juice--apple or grape, if you have it. . ."
She paused, obviously listening to a question they were asking,
then continued, "No, it won't really stop the diarrhea, but he needs
plenty of fluids to prevent dehydration."
Again she was silent, and I couldn't help but feel
some pride at how seriously my boys were taking the whole situation, to
ask so many questions of Dana. Finally
she responded, "Well, Pedialyte is better, but I doubt you have any
lying around the Warehouse. Don't
worry--we have some here." Another
moment of silence before she shook her head (even though they couldn't see
that) and answered, "No, don't give him any baby Tylenol.
His fever's not that high. Just
make sure he has plenty to drink. . .
I'm on my way." She
finally looked up at me, and this time *I* was the one doing the head
shaking. Placing her hand over
the phone she asked, "What's wrong?"
"You stay here--I'll go get him," I told her.
"You should be by the phone in case they need more help or if
things get more serious."
"You sure?"
I was already grabbing my coat. "No
problem. Tell them I'm
coming." She did, then
hung up.
"Mel? I'm
sorry about this," she apologized.
"What a way to end the evening."
Shooting her a rueful grin, I joked, "Hey, it was nice while it
lasted."
"Yes, it certainly was," she replied,
wistfully. "Please drive
carefully."
I gave her one last quick kiss on the cheek and said,
"Don't worry--I'll be home soon."
And I dashed out the door.
DANA:
As I sat back down on the couch to begin the waiting
game, I gazed down at my beautiful new ring, and couldn't help but curse
my luck. <Dammit. . .my
birthday wish almost came true that time.>
+++++++++++++++++++
Title: Home Sweet Home
Author: J. D. Rush
E-mail: yanksfan462@aol.com
Website: http://itak.slashcity.net
Category: Het/gen
Pairing: Frohike/Scully
Rating: PG for mild language
Summary: Home is where the heart is. . .but
maybe home should be someplace else.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Never mine, unless I can convince CC, 1013 and FOX to give them to
me. I'm not holding my breath.
Notes: Um, I guess since it's been a while,
maybe an update is in order. This
is an AU series where Scully is married to Frohike.
Stop making that face--it'll freeze that way.
It's a 'companionable' marriage. . .but there's no guarantee it'll
stay that way. Mulder is
nowhere to be found. . .but there's no guarantee THAT'LL stay that way,
either. After being removed
from The X-Files, Scully has taken a job teaching at
Quantico
; Frohike continues to work with The Lone Gunmen, and plays 'Mr. Mom' to
William.
Also, while I've stolen--ahhhh BORROWED--elements
from the 9th season, I've pretty much abandoned canon at this point.
There are no super soldiers, Scully is not an uber-bitch, she still
trusts both Skinner and Doggett, she and Mulder did NOT do 'the wild
thing' (no matter WHAT CC and the shippers say), and William is NOT a
psycho baby. CC may be a
considered a genius, but he's really out to lunch this year.
Now that we're on the same page, on with the show.
Home Sweet Home
By: J. D. Rush
Tuesday March 5, 2002
"I can't believe they called you to come get
me."
My husband leaned into the gurney and carefully
brushed the hair away from my forehead.
"Huh--I don't suppose it has anything to do with this bump on
your head?"
"Small bump," I grumbled.
God, I hated hospitals. So
glad I went to
Quantico
. . . I couldn't imagine having to spend every day of my life in one of
these places. I seemed to end
up in them enough without trying.
"It's still a bump, and they didn't want you
driving. Not that you have a
car to drive," he added, not unkindly.
"Where IS my car anyway?" I asked,
curiously. The last I saw it
had been pulled of the side of the road and was being hooked up to a tow
truck. Then the ambulance
doors closed.
Mel stepped over to a chair in the corner and picked
up my discarded jacket. Holding
it out to me, he said, "It was brought to a nearby gas station.
I got the name from AAA. We'll
check on it when we get home."
I hopped off the stretcher, disconcerted to discover
my legs were more than a bit wobbly. I
tried to lie to myself and say it was just due to lack of use--I HAD been
sitting here for nearly two hours, after all.
As Mel helped me on with my coat, I noticed something--or rather,
someONE was missing. "Frohike,
where's William?"
"Safe," he quickly assured me.
"I dropped him off before I made the trek out here."
"That was probably a good move."
"Yeah, sometimes I'm on the ball.
Ready to go?"
I grabbed up my purse, and made a face as I looked
around the tiny curtained-off ER stall.
"More that ready."
Placing a guiding hand around my waist, he chuckled,
"Then let's roll."
* * * * * * * * * *
We had been on the road for a while when I finally
asked, "Mel, where are we going?"
"I told you.
To pick up William."
"But this isn't the way to mom's house," I
pointed out.
"Yeah, I know.
I couldn't reach her."
"Or the Warehouse."
He shrugged, "Well, the guys are out of town on
a story."
"Then where are we going?"
"You'll see," he answered, cryptically.
So, I sat back and just enjoyed the ride, letting the
fresh twilight air clear my head a bit, and trying to piece together what
had gone wrong. One minute I
had been on my way home, stuck in standard bumper-to-bumper early evening
rush-hour traffic--the next I knew I had been hit from behind and found
myself involved in a four-car collision.
I guess it was a good thing my Volvo hit that Explorer in front of
me, since it stopped the chain reaction.
We all exchanged insurance info once the highway
patrol showed up, and the other three drivers drove off.
I was the only one who had been injured, albeit barely, and even
though I protested, the responding officer had insisted on calling an
ambulance. I don't think he
wanted to be held liable since it was a head injury.
I suppose if I had been in his position, I would have done the same
thing--but it still pissed me off. And
since my car was leaking some kind of liquid (most likely coolant,
according to the officer), a tow-truck was called as well.
Over all, it hadn't been one of my better days.
I came out of my reminiscing long enough to take a
look out the window, instantly recognizing where we were.
I should, after all. I
had only driven it for nine years. "Frohike.
. .this is the way to the
Hoover
," I observed.
"Um. . .yeah. . .I guess it is," he
replied, distractedly.
"Why are we going there?
I thought you said we were picking up Will. . ."
I paused and shook my head. "No.
Don't tell me you. . ."
"Dana, I didn't have a choice," he
insisted.
"You could have bought him along."
"I didn't know how long we'd be.
I figured it'd be better if he were safe.
You even said it was a good move, remember?"
"That was before I knew you dropped him off at
the
F.B.I.
Building
!"
"Honey, I swear to you, if I had another choice,
I would have taken it."
"Fine."
I let it drop. There
wasn't anything I could do now that the damage was done anyhow.
The rest of the trip was made in silence--I think Mel
was afraid to say anything further and get his head bitten off again.
Once he parked in the visitor's parking lot, I led him into the
building. I greeted Sarah
Dawson, who was manning the Security Desk.
We chatted for a few minutes, getting caught up on old times before
she handed us the visitor's log to sign.
It felt weird being on this side of things.
This wasn't the first time I was delegated to 'visitor' status, but
now that it was permanent, I wasn't sure I liked it all that much.
Once we were signed in, we were granted our passes,
and together we walked over to the metal detector.
The young man on duty recognized not just me but Mel as well, and
tried to wave us through. But
I knew Sarah was watching, and I didn't want him to get in trouble, so I
dragged a protesting Frohike ("Those things screw up your DNA
molecules!" he hissed) through the annoying machine.
Finally, we made our way over to the bank of
elevators. First one down
emptied its load of passengers, and Mel and I got on.
I went to press B for the Basement, but Frohike stilled my hand,
and pressed '4' instead. Thank
goodness we were the only two on the elevator as I let out a huge groan,
"Oh, Frohike, you didn't."
"Reyes and Doggett weren't answering their
phone," he practically whined. "My
hands were tied!"
After the longest elevator ride of my life, we
strolled down the endless corridor until we got to the AD's office.
I led Mel into the anteroom, only to discover Kim missing from her
desk, and the door to Skinner's sanctum closed.
"Could he have gone home already?" I muttered
distractedly. "It's still
early."
"Well, it's nearly
6:30
," Mel pointed out.
"For Skinner, that's early," I countered.
I watched as Frohike moved over to the office door
and pressed his ear to it. After
a few seconds, he announced, "No, someone's definitely still
home." With that, he
knocked once and opened the door; I followed close behind.
The scene that greeted us was priceless: big, bad AD
Skinner was sitting on the floor with his secretary.
They were both playing with my son, and all three of them were
surrounded by a variety of colorful baby toys.
At the sound of the door opening, Kim looked up and gasped,
"Sir, I think we've been busted."
Walter leaped up as if his pants had caught fire, and
he stormed over to us, pretending to distance himself from the positively
adorable scene we had interrupted. I
found myself trying to suppress a smile as he asked, in his gruffest
no-nonsense voice, "Dana, how are you?"
I was able to compose myself long enough to tell him,
"It's just a bump, si. . . Walter.
I've gotten worse on even the most routine X-File
investigations."
He reached over to gently push up my bangs and
observed, "This looks nasty."
"That's what *I've* been trying to tell
her," concurred Dr. Frohike.
"Really, guys, I'm fine," I cut in quickly.
I was NOT about to let these lay-people diagnosis me.
"I've survived a lot worse.
I'd just like to get home and get some rest.
It's been a long day."
"Is that wise?" Walter asked, fretfully.
"I mean, if it's a concussion. . ."
"Walter, I appreciate your concern, but I'm the
doctor, remember? I think I
know what I'm doing."
He studied me for a moment before relenting.
"Well, if you're sure. . .Kim?"
The young woman approached us, carrying a giggly
William. As she handed him
over to me, she gushed, "You're so lucky, Dana.
He's an absolute joy."
William seemed happy to see me, if his excited 'Ma Ma
Ma's" were any indication. "Thanks, Kim, for everything.
I really owe you and Walter big time for this."
"It was a pleasure," she assured me before
turning to her boss. "Sir?
If you're finished with me, I'm going to pack it in for the
night."
"You do that, Kim.
We've both had a busy day," he said, with a nod towards
William, which caused his pretty assistant to laugh.
"See you tomorrow morning."
"Yes, sir."
With that, she headed out to her desk and started to collect her
things. I've always liked
Kim--she was friendly, professional, dedicated, and completely loyal to
Skinner. And in this town,
that was the name of the game.
"I'll get him, hon.
You should take it easy," Frohike asserted, as he took William
from me, getting a round of "Da Da Da's" in the bargain.
Sheesh, it was just a bump!
"Mel. . ." I said, warningly, but I could tell from the
look on his face I wasn't going to win the argument, so I backed off and
sighed heavily, "Fine."
While we were busy with our little showdown, Walter
went around gathering up all the scattered toys.
He threw them all into William's baby bag, which he flung over his
shoulder before grabbing his briefcase and suit jacket.
"You know, I think I'm going to head out with you guys,"
he rumbled.
"BEFORE
7:00
? Walter, you're getting
soft," I teased.
He shut off the lights and closed the door behind us.
"Maybe things are just easier for me around here without you
and Mulder? No more late
nights trying to make sense of those reports, no more migraines over those
creative 302's. . ."
"Aw, you had fun, Walter, and you know it,"
I chided him.
"I don't know, Dana.
Sleep has its appeal, too," he deadpanned.
Mel and I scampered after him, needed two steps each
to match one of his long strides down the near-empty corridor.
As we all stood waiting for the elevator, an idea suddenly came to
me. "You know, I haven't
had dinner yet. We were going
to stop off for Chinese on the way home--do you want to join us,
Walter?"
Skinner just looked at me, a war of emotions playing
out on his face. I could see
he wanted to accept, but something wouldn't let him.
"No, thank you. I.
. .that's kind of you, Dana, but I really should be getting home.
I have these folders that need looking over. . ."
"Weren't you the one who was just crowing about
how your workload is lighter now that I'm not here anymore?" I
reminded him. "It's JUST
dinner."
"Yeah, c'mon, Walt.
It's the least we can do for bailing us out like you did," Mel
added, and I could have hugged him for it.
"Guh Guh Guh ," William chimed in with his
own happy two cents worth.
Walter's apprehension melted away as he gazed at my
son, and with a smile he said, "How can I refuse an invitation like
that? I'd love to."
* * * * * * * * * *
"So, how's Billy?"
I collapsed onto the sofa, exhausted.
Dealing with my hyperactive child was just the perfect ending to
the perfect day. "He's
wound up like a top. I don't
think he'll go to sleep for hours."
"It's all Walter's fault," Frohike
pronounced, as he walked into the living room.
"Billy was really taken with him."
"And he with William.
I never imagined my boss would be so good with children."
"Ex-boss. Here."
I grasped the steaming mug that Mel handed to me and
took a deep appreciative whiff. "Mmmm.
. .Swiss White Chocolate, my favorite.
Which one did you take?"
He sat down beside me on the sofa, a mug of his own
in his hand. "Café
Vienna. And if you tell the
guys I'm drinking this floo-floo International Coffees shit, I'll get your
gun and put us both out of our misery."
"Aww, come on, Mel.
It'll do you good to get in touch with your 'feminine side'."
"I've been there.
It wasn't a pretty sight."
With that, he kicked off his shoes and rested his feet on the
coffee table.
Normally, I'd scold him for doing something like
that, but tonight, after the kind of day I had, I joined him.
Sighing contentedly, I said, "So, any luck with the
garage?"
He took a drink from his cup and made a face that
clearly said 'hey, this isn't so bad' before he answered, "Nah, they
were already closed for the night. But
the answering machine had a pager number for emergencies.
I left a message to call us."
"Thank you, Mel."
"Hey, no problem.
You were busy with Billy and I was waiting for the water to boil
anyway and. . ."
I interrupted him gently, "No, Mel, I meant,
thank you for everything. Not
just for calling the garage and making me my drink.
But also for coming to get me at the hospital, making sure William
was safe and sound, even though all our usual sitters were indisposed.
And especially for helping me to get Walter to that restaurant.
I think he had a good time."
"He certainly seemed to--couldn't shut him up
there for a while." I
giggled as Mel started playfully nudging my feet with his own.
"He's really an okay guy once you get him out of the
office."
"I know. That's
what I'm finding out." I
took a sip of my coffee--ooh, that hit the spot--and reflected, "I
think he's lonely."
"Yeah, I got that impression, too."
"Maybe we should have him over sometime for
dinner?" I suggested. "Him
and Kim."
"Kim? His
assistant?"
I drank deeply from my coffee.
"Well, they looked so cute playing with William.
I was just thinking that maybe, with the proper nudge in the right
direction, maybe we could get something going OUTSIDE the office,
too."
He scoffed, "Dana, no offense, but I don't think
Kim is his type."
"Why not? Don't
you think she's pretty?
"Are you kidding? She's
totally hot," he amended.
I elbowed him in the ribs and kidded, "Should I
be worried?"
"Not in the least," he replied, acting offended.
"I was just offering you my opinion, that's all.
I TOLD you I have a weakness for redheads."
"Right. So
if she's such a fox, why wouldn't she be Walter's type?"
"Funny you should use the word 'fox', he
mumbled.
"I'm afraid I've lost you."
He turned to me and inquired, "Didn't you notice that Skinner spent a
inordinate amount of time talking about Mulder this evening?"
"Not really--I mean, not for Walter.
He talks about Mulder a lot anyway."
I just stared at Mel for a moment.
"What are you implying?"
"Nothing. It might be
nothing. I'm just pointing out
what I saw. . .and heard." He
shook his head and muttered, "Forget I said anything," before he
went back to his coffee.
As his words sunk in, *I* shook my head.
No. Impossible.
He couldn't be suggesting that. . ."Frohike, are you saying
Walter Skinner, Mr. By-The-Book-The-F.B.I.-Is-My-Life Walter Skinner, has
the hots for Fox Mulder?!"
"All I know is every other sentence out of his
mouth tonight was 'Mulder this' and 'Mulder that'.
I mean, I love the guy, too, but I can go a whole five minutes
without saying his name." He
shrugged, "But then you know Skinner better than me.
If you say this is normal behavior for him, I won't call you on
it."
"Mel, I'm sorry, but just the idea of Walter and
Mulder together. . . that's too strange for even an X-File," I
laughed.
"Hey, after hanging around with you and the
G-man for over eight years, I've seen stranger things than that," he
countered.
I quickly thought over the last few months, all the
times I've been in Walter's presence, and Fro was right.
My ex-boss DID spend a lot of time talking about my ex-partner.
No matter what our topic of conversation, he always managed to
steer talk back to Mulder, and we ended up reminiscing about our rogue
friend, or discussing where he was now and what he could be doing.
And with that knowledge, I found myself rapidly
flashing back over the last eight years.
All those times the two of us sat in Skinner's office while he
grilled us--the tones in his voice, the looks in his eyes.
Not to mention all the times he went out of his way to pull
Mulder's ass out of the fire. My
God, could I have been so BLIND? Was
it really possible?
No, it was just late, and I had had a bad day, and I
was simply susceptible to suggestion, that's all.
There was nothing untoward going on between Skinner and Mulder, of
that I was sure.
Just as I was coming to this conclusion, however, the
phone rang. Mel put his cup
down on the coffee table and answered it while I leaned back and enjoyed
my coffee. He was only on a
couple of minutes, his end of the conversation limited to basically grunts
and 'Uh-huhs' and 'Yups'. Once
he hung up, he turned to me and announced, "Well, that was the
garage. They said your car
should be ready in a couple of days."
"A couple of days?" I groused.
"Seems some damage was done to the radiator when
you hit the Explorer, plus they have to buff out those dents in the front
and rear bumpers."
"How much?"
"Reasonable.
I wouldn't let him touch it if I thought he was ripping you
off."
"You know, maybe I should just trade it in for
that mini-. . ."
"Don't even finish that sentence, Dana," he
growled, menacingly.
"A couple of days," I moaned.
"How will I get to work?"
He threw his arm over my shoulder and gave it a
friendly squeeze. "Take
some time off, sweetheart. It'll
give you a chance to heal."
"It's just a bump, Fro," I said for the
hundredth time, "and I can't take some time off.
I have classes, exams. . ."
"Well, what about your friend, Andie?" he
suggested. "Couldn't she
take your classes for you?"
"I can't ask her to do that," I insisted.
"She's already carrying a full load."
I paused to take a sip of my drink, a plan slowly forming in my
head. It was sneaky and
underhanded, but I'm sure Mel would forgive me.
Leaning my head on his shoulder, I looked up at him through my
eyelashes, and cooed, "I don't suppose I could borrow YOUR car?"
He just looked down at me and laughed.
"Dana, are you flirting with me?"
"Maybe," I whispered, batting my eyes at
him. "Is it
working?"
That got him laughing harder.
"Honey, I'm really enjoying the show, but my answer's no.
You're not used to the way my car handles. . ."
"And you don't want anything to happen to
it," I finished sulkily, sitting back upright.
With a put-upon sigh, he replied,
"No, Dana. To YOU.
I could give a damn about the car.
I don't want anything to happen to YOU. "
I dropped my eyes and quickly apologized, "I'm
sorry, Mel," feeling ashamed of myself for thinking the worse of my
friend. "That was
uncalled for."
One gloved hand slid lovingly down my face.
"It's okay, kiddo. You
had a rough day. I
understand."
"Yeah, but I seem to have a tendency to snap at
you when I've had a bad day," I pointed out.
"As long as I'm providing a service," he
joked.
"An indispensable service," I joked back.
He picked up his mug and took a sip; after a moment,
he said, "I could always drive you in."
I shook my head.
"No. That's sweet
of you, Fro, but
Quantico
's out of your way. WAY out of
your way," I emphasized.
"Yeah, I wish you worked closer."
"So do I," I agreed, wistfully.
I was used to a short commute to the
F.B.I.
Building
. Now it was over 70 miles one
way. . .which seemed much longer during rush hour.
"It's too long," he stated.
That point was rather obvious: the 90 minutes I was
stuck in traffic everyday had gotten stale rather quickly.
"Well, it's no more than anyone else in this country, and
decidedly shorter than some people."
"But Dana, you're exhausted.
And you barely get to see William anymore except in the morning and
to tuck him in at night--IF you're lucky.
I thought this job was supposed to give you MORE time with
him."
"At least I'm not being called out of town every
other week," I grumbled. <Talk
about your small blessings.>
"Well, you know the saying:
if the mountain won't come to Mohammed. . ." he muttered,
vaguely.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Since we can't move
Quantico
closer to us--maybe it's time to think about moving closer to
Quantico
," he explained.
"Are you serious?"
"You said it yourself.
The commute is hellish for both of us.
Maybe we could find something halfway between both of our jobs.
And it'll be good for William, too.
I mean, this is a nice place, Dana, but there's nowhere for the kid
to play. No backyard, a busy
street with lots of cars. . ."
"You know, you've got a point there.
And this apartment IS small. . .maybe we can find a bigger
one."
He took a sip from his mug before he replied,
"Actually, I was thinking of a house."
"A HOUSE?" I squeaked, incredulously.
"You want to buy a house?"
"Yeah. Something
permanent to set down some roots. Give
William some stability."
"But what about the expense?" I bemoaned.
"Houses cost so much money."
He cut me off before I could go on any further.
"Actually, once you get past all the closing costs and stuff,
there's really no difference between paying a monthly mortgage and a
monthly rent. And at the end
of it, you have something you can call your own.
Plus the interest rates on mortgages right now are some of the best
in years."
I had to admit he had a good point--several good
points in fact. This apartment
was quite small for the three of us, and there really weren't any safe
places for Will to play once he got older.
But a house? "Mel,
I. . .I hear what you're saying but this is a big step you're talking
about. A giant step.
I. . .I don't think I can make a decision that big in just one
night. I mean, we're not
exactly talking about buying a toaster oven here."
"Honey, I know that.
This is a huge decision, and I don't expect you to make it just one
night. But now that the topic
has been introduced, we can discuss it whenever you're ready."
He reached over and started massaging my neck and shoulders.
<God, this guy's got great hands!> After a few minutes
of exquisite kneading, he crooned, "Now, what I think you should do
is turn in early. You had a
pretty rough day."
"Mmmmmm," I sighed, even as I melted
further into his touch. "I
think I like the sound of that."
With a final pass of his hands and a kiss on my right
cheek he let me go, asking, "Need any help?"
"No, I think I can find my bedroom on my own."
I stood up and stretched. "Are
you going to join me?"
"Why, Dana, I never thought you'd ask!" he purred with his
patented leer.
It dawned on me what I said, and I know I blushed to
my toes. "Not that, you
pervert," and I gave him a playful shove.
"I mean, are you turning in early, too?"
He sighed dramatically, "Well, since you've withdrawn the offer, I
think I'll just hang out here for a while.
There are some online sites I've been wanting to check out, and I
think there's a Lakers game scheduled later on tonight."
"Oh, okay."
I put my empty mug on the coffee table, and was just about to head
off for bed when something occurred to me.
I leaned down and gave him a huge hug.
"Hey, what's this for?" he asked, puzzled,
even while he wrapped his arms around me and returned my embrace.
"Just--thanks again for everything," I
whispered, sincerely. "Sometimes
I think you're a godsend."
In a real bad John Wayne imitation, he replied,
"Simply doin' my job, ma'am."
He gave me a kiss on the cheek and a playful little shove.
"Now, go get some sleep. I'll
see you in the morning."
But sleep didn't come easily for me, despite my
exhaustion. My brain just
refused to shut down, as it played our conversation over and over again.
A house! My goodness,
we had been married less than six months and now we were contemplating
buying a house together. Okay,
if we're being honest--*I* would be buying the house.
We lived on my salary, after all, so it was a pretty safe bet that
I would be footing the bill for this expense, too.
But the more I thought about it, the more I warmed up
to the idea. I've always
wanted a place to call my own, something with some security, something I
could invest in for my old age. A
place in a quiet little community with good schools where William could
grow up happy and healthy. And
Frohike WAS right--this apartment may have been nice while I was single,
but it really wasn't designed for a family, as we had found out.
As I finally started to feel sleep claiming me, it
was with images of real estate ads dancing in my head.
* * * * * * * * * *
"Hey, sweetie.
How'd you sleep?"
"Pretty good, actually."
I walked over to the counter, poured myself a cup of fresh coffee,
and joined Mel and William at the kitchen table.
My baby looked decidedly droopy, as if hungover from his excesses
of the night before, but he still managed a chirpy, "Ma Ma Ma,"
for me before he went back to playing in his oatmeal.
"Dana, if I were you, I'd drink that quick and
get ready ASAP," Mel suggested, plowing through his own meal faster
than usual.
"Ready for what?"
"Work. You've got a long
drive ahead of you."
"Mel, I don't have a car, remember?" I reminded him,
sarcastically.
He swallowed his mouthful and proudly announced, "You do now."
I felt my eyebrows shoot up at that. "You're
loaning me the GTO after all?"
"Not quite. I've made
other arrangements."
Placing my head in my hands, I groaned, "Please don't tell me I have
to drive that VW minibus of yours?"
He just laughed, "No, Jimmy won't let the mobile command unit out of
his sight."
"Then how. . .?"
He finished off his cereal and pushed the bowl away.
"I called AVIS this morning, and just our luck--they have a
Volvo for rent. I can drop you
off at their office on the way to the Warehouse, if you get your rear in
gear."
"Frohike! I was right.
You ARE a godsend. Give
me ten minutes." I took
another swig of coffee, then got up and placed the mug, along with his
empty bowl, in the sink.
"Good. That'll give me
just enough time to clean this little guy up."
I watched in amusement as he got up himself and started the
unenviable task of trying to remove William from his highchair.
Our son seemed to have gotten his second wind, as he started
laughing and kicking out his little legs, making Mel's job that much
harder.
Finally freed, they were heading off to the bathroom
when I was broken out of my trance and I was able to call out, "By
the way, Mel--yes."
Frohike turned back to me, a very sticky baby planted
on his hip, and asked, "Yes, what?"
"I've given it some thought, and perhaps you're
right about the house."
"Really?"
He seemed surprised that I was going along with him.
I gave my S.O. a big smile.
"Yeah. You've made
some very valid arguments and I've always wanted my own home.
It couldn't hurt to go look around and see what's out there,
right?"
"Couldn't hurt at all," he eagerly agreed.
"Do you have any plans for Saturday?"
Adjusting William to get a better grip, he grinned,
"Oh, I think I can clear out my extremely busy schedule for
you."
"Then it's a date."
As I made my way back to my bedroom, I called out over my shoulder,
"You know, Frohike, I think this is one of your better ideas."
ONE EXHAUSTING SATURDAY LATER:
"This was a bad idea, Frohike.
Maybe we should stay put."
"It was only one afternoon, Dana.
Heck, some people spend MONTHS looking for the right place."
"MONTHS!? I
can't even think about doing this for MONTHS!"
In one day, we had visited eight different homes, each worse than
the one before. At the memory
of some of them, I started to laugh. "Remember
that first place they showed us?"
He burst into laughter himself.
"You mean the mayor's mansion?
Damn, it was bigger than the Warehouse!
Billy coulda played stickball in the foyer!"
"Oh, but the Olympic size indoor swimming pool
was a nice touch," I praised, sardonically.
"Can you imagine how long it would take to CLEAN something
like that?"
"Not to mention the monthly payments on a 30
year mortgage for that puppy."
"30 years? Try
60!"
"Billy would be a grandfather before it was paid
off," he joked.
"Well, if you want cheap, we can always go with
the 'fixer-upper'," I countered.
"You mean the Addam's family house?
I'm a tinker-er, Dana, not freakin' Bob Vila.
I've seen condemned buildings that were in better shape than that
place. The best thing that
monstrosity could hope for is to be blown off to Oz."
I flopped down on the couch with a huff.
"I just want something neat and simple, cute with a little
flower garden and some place for William to run around.
Is that so difficult?"
"We'll find it, Dana.
Just give it some time."
Leaning my head backwards against the soft cushions
on the back of the sofa, I sighed, "I wish it could be like 'Miracle
on
34th Street
'."
He came and sat beside me.
"How so?"
"Well, the little girl found her dream house in
a newspaper ad, and then Santa got it for her."
Looking over at my friend, I gave a little smirk, "That's the
ONLY way to do it."
"Maybe not the only way, Dana."
He jumped off the couch and ran over to the desktop computer,
mumbling, "Shoulda thought of this sooner."
I watched in fascination as he logged on and his fingers flew
across the keyboard until found the web page he was looking for.
"Voila."
"What is it, Mel?" I asked, going to him
and leaning over his shoulder.
"Real estate listings.
What do you want? Colonial?
Ranch? Town
house?"
"Something we can afford," I joked.
"Okay, refrigerator box it is."
I punched him in the shoulder.
"Frohike!" I laughed.
"Hey! Stop
with the punching," he chuckled.
I watched as he entered our requirements--bathrooms, bedrooms,
price range, location--and suddenly a page full of homes for sale popped
up on the screen. We both
checked over the page, vetoed all of them and moved to the next page. .
.and the next. . . and the next. He
changed the parameters, upped the maximum price, and still nothing.
It was so depressing, almost as bad as the afternoon had been.
But just as I turned away in disgust, I caught a vision out of the
corner of my eye.
"THAT ONE!"
We both exclaimed at the same time, our fingers pointing to the
same little house on the screen. A
total cliché of the American dream--it was a two-story pale beige Cape
Cod, with dark brown shutters and a huge bay window in the front; a little
white picket fence, a small flower garden, and a stone walkway completed
the image. All it needed was a
dog and 2.5 kids in the front yard.
We immediately called the agent to set up a viewing.
The next day, we drove over to
Lorton
,
Virginia
. (Talk about a time-saver. .
. we'd each cut our commute times in nearly half!)
We rode down along the quiet tree-lined street until we came up to
the house, which looked even better than in the picture, if that was
possible. Mel let out a low
soft whistle, and muttered, " 'Miracle on
34th Street
', indeed."
The agent greeted us at the door; Frohike, wheeling a
drowsy William in his stroller, followed her inside while I stepped around
back. The backyard was a nice
size and flat (currently covered with a light layer of snow, but I
imagined it'd be lush and grassy in season).
There was plenty of space for William to play in, and perhaps,
someday, to put in a pool and a small garden; the two enormous oak trees
that shaded the whole area pleased me greatly.
"Dana, get in here and check this out!" I
heard Fro yell excitedly from out front, and I hurried back to see what
there was to see.
30 Minutes Later:
"It's perfect," I sighed, looking out over
the backyard again, this time from the confines of the sun porch.
I loved the kitchen, I loved the bathrooms, I loved the staircase.
In fact, I loved the whole design of the place.
There was almost nothing that needed to be done or changed, and I
couldn't believe our luck that it was still on the market.
Frohike had commented that maybe it was haunted or perhaps a
gristly murder had taken place there that was scaring the buyers away.
But as I told him, ghosts and dead bodies were nothing new to
me--and if that's all that stood between me and this house, then I'd learn
to live with them.
"So, our search is over already?" he asked.
"I think so.
We'd need to get the inspectors in and everything, but I think this
is the one."
"Then Santa will get it for you."
"What about you, Mel?
Do YOU like it?"
"Dana, it doesn't matter.
As long as you and Billy are here, it'll be my home."
He broke out into a big grin. "But
yeah, I love it, too."
"Can we afford it?" I asked, concerned.
This house was a bit higher than we had wanted to go.
Money wasn't a major concern for us usually.
I got paid pretty well at
Quantico
, and what Frohike didn't bring to the bank account he contributed in
other ways--as a daycare worker, a cook, a maid, a plumber, a mechanic.
He saved us a fortune with all his skills and talents.
He shrugged, and admitted, reluctantly, "Well, I
. . I have some money stashed away."
I felt my eyebrow go up on that one.
"Really? More
sold patents I don't know about?" I tried for teasing but I knew my
tone was slightly peeved. I
didn't like the fact that he had been holding out on me.
I mean, this was supposed to be 50/50, right?
"Not disposable funds," he amended.
"Some stocks, bonds--that kind of stuff.
I was saving them for something big.
And I guess it doesn't come bigger than this, huh?"
I shook my head, realizing what he saying.
"No way, Mel. I
won't take your nest egg. That's
for your golden years. We'll
just have to find someplace else."
He took my hand.
"What's mine is yours. For
better for worse. For richer
for poorer. 50/50 all the way,
remember?"
"But. . ."
I weakly protested.
"Dana, I promised you that I'd take care of you
and William. I. . .I've never
had a home as nice as this, never thought that I would.
And besides, what good is money anyway?
You can't take it with you, right?"
"Are you sure?"
He clasped my hands tighter in his, looked me
straight in the eye, and asked simply, "Will this house make you
happy?"
I looked behind us, through the porch door, into the
living room. I could SEE it:
decorated, a fire going in the fireplace, William playing on the floor,
Mel and I sitting on the couch sipping wine and watching TV.
It was everything I could want.
Turning to my husband with tears in my eyes, I whispered,
"Yes. . .if you're in it with me."
Tears momentarily filled his eyes as well before I
found myself wrapped in a huge bear hug.
"Then what are we waiting for?" his voice rough and
scratchy all of a sudden. "Let's
go put in a bid."
We retrieved William, who was now sleeping soundly in
his stroller in the corner, and went off to look for the agent.
+++++++++++++++++
Title: Confessions Part 3
Author: J. D. Rush
E-mail: yanksfan462@aol.com
Website: http://itak.slashcity.net
Category: Het/gen
Pairing: Frohike/Scully
Rating: PG for some bad language
Summary: Frohike is forced to do some funky
sweet-talking.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Never mine, unless I can convince CC, 1013 and FOX to give them to
me. I'm not holding my breath.
Notes: Special thanks goes out to Super
Shamrock! For her beta, her
friendship, and her encouragement.
Confessions Part 3
By: J. D. Rush
Friday, March 22, 2002
I had almost made my silent escape, my hand turning
the knob on the front door when I heard a throat clearing behind me.
Shit. Busted.
I slowly turned around to face a very irate Dana
Scully, hands on her hips, staring daggers at me with those ice blue eyes
of hers. "Ahhh. . .hi,
Dana." <Oh, THAT'S
intelligent, Melvin!>
"Mel," she responded, her tone as cold as
her eyes.
I let the knapsack I was holding slide to the floor.
"I. . .I thought you went to bed."
"I did, but I got up for a glass of water."
Nodding at the fallen knapsack, she inquired snottily, "Going
somewhere?"
"Ohhh. . .ahhhh. . ."
"It's
1:00 a.m.
" she observed, needlessly.
"Ummm. . ." You know, it's much easier to
bluff when your brain hasn't shut down completely.
Dammit, I haven't felt so cornered since my last major blow-up with
Mykita. This one was promising
to rival it, if not leave it in the dust.
She brought her arms up and crossed them over her
robe-covered chest; her eyebrow quirked as she observed, "Nice
outfit. Black pants, black
turtleneck, black jacket, black ski-cap.
If I didn't know any better, I'd say those are your poaching
clothes."
Oh, boy. I
was in deep shit now. "Honey,
I can explain. . ." <And don't think I haven't said THAT
before.>
"Frohike, just answer me one thing.
Am I going to be busting your ass out of some secured government
installment any time soon?"
"We're just going to be doing a bit of snooping,
that's all," I answered, defensively.
She contemplated that for a moment before responding,
"You know, Mulder used to snoop a lot.
He used to get SHOT a lot, too."
"Yeah, well, no offense, but Mulder didn't seem
to understand the concept of 'duck'," I muttered.
"I've got a much better track record than him."
"Hmmm. . .as I recall, Skinner had do some
pretty fancy footwork to get you guys out of the Fenix Atlantic building a
few months back."
"Yeah, and without a single shot fired," I
reminded her, proudly.
By the look on her face, she wasn't impressed with that fact.
"Have you done this before, Mel?
Sneak out like this in the middle of the night without telling
me?"
"No, I swear on a stack of Bibles this is the first time."
"And that's suppose to make me feel better?" she queried.
Okay. Now
I was starting to lose my patience. "Look,
Dana, this is my job. This is
what I do. You knew that when
you married me."
"You're breaking the law," she declared,
forcefully.
"Gee, you didn't seem to mind when we'd do it
for you and Mulder." When
I saw the stunned look on her face, I wished I could have bit my tongue
off for that one. "Awww,
shit, I'm sorry. I didn't
mean. . ."
"No, no, you're right," she agreed,
amiably, once she recovered her voice.
"It IS a double standard, isn't it?
Just answer me one question. . .were you going to tell me about
this?"
I didn't even hesitate.
"No."
Her sharp intake of breath echoed in the quiet room.
"Well, at least that was honest," she laughed,
mirthlessly.
"Dana, you gotta understand," I pleaded.
"I've blown off a lot of covert missions since we hooked up.
The guys really need me this time."
"Mel, William needs you," she explained, patiently.
"*I* need you."
"I know, honey." And
I DID. But. . .this was
important, too, even if I couldn't make her see that.
"The rules have changed, for both of us,"
she continued. "We have
other responsibilities now than to our friends and partners.
Have you ever thought about how it would look for an employee of
the F.B.I. to have to bail her husband out of jail because he was caught
breaking into an off-limits military site?"
"Well, I'd think they'd be used to it after all
the times you had to bail out Mulder's ass for doing the same thing."
<Oh, man--why is my mouth always flapping before my brain
kicks into gear? No WONDER
Mykita used to throw plates at me when we fought.
I freaking deserved it!>
She just glared at me.
"Not funny, Frohike."
"I'm sorry--I didn't mean to be so flippant," I answered,
penitently.
"I know you didn't."
She gave a huge sigh and dropped her arms, along with the hostile
attitude. "I know you're
in a hurry, but can we sit and talk for a moment?"
The change was so quick and startling that I was
momentarily knocked off balance. "Uh,
yeah, sure," I said, and followed her to the couch.
We sat in silence for a few moments before Dana
finally turned to me, her pretty eyes sad and troubled.
"Frohike, when we first entered into this 'arrangement', we
both had a lot to overcome--getting used to living with a new roommate,
the pressures of parenthood, the anxiety of trying to keep our secret from
our family and friends. It
hasn't always been easy, but I think it's been working out pretty good. .
.much better than I even thought it would."
"I've never been happier," I confessed
honestly.
Her face got softer as she gently took my hand in
hers. "Me, too, Mel.
You've made me very happy."
I felt my heart swell when she said that.
I had made Dana Scully happy.
"And I hope to do so for a very long time,"
I pledged.
"I'm sure you will."
She went quiet again for a few more moments before she added,
"I want you to know that I understand why you have to do what you're
going to do tonight, and why you might have wanted to keep it a secret,
but it still hurts that you didn't tell me your plans."
I squeezed her hand tightly.
"I never meant to hurt you, Dana," I stated emphatically.
"That is the last thing I'd ever do.
You must know that."
She gave me a quick little smile.
"Yes, I do know that."
Looking down at our entwined hands, she gave a squeeze of her own
as she whispered, "I want this to work so badly, but I don't know if
it can if we lie to each other. . ."
"I didn't lie," I protested.
"I just. . .didn't tell you, that's all."
Her eyebrow rose, questioningly.
"And WHY didn't you tell me?" she asked.
Shrugging my shoulders, I mumbled, "Because I
didn't want you to worry."
"And that was the only reason, right?" she
queried, sardonically.
"Well, no," I admitted, hesitantly.
"I figured you'd try to stop me."
"Then I did exactly what you thought I'd
do."
"Truthfully, I anticipated more broken china when you found
out."
That got a genuine laugh from her.
"Sounds like you're familiar with those types of
'discussions'."
"Let's just say I manage to bring out the
inner-discus thrower in women."
That got an even heartier laugh.
"Something tells me I would have paid good money to see some
of those fights."
"Shoulda put them on pay-per-view.
Lot
better than that FOX celebrity boxing match."
It took a while for the chuckles to die down; when
they did, Dana picked up where she had left off.
"I know how important your job is to you, Mel, and that you
have responsibilities to your partners, but I don't like being deceived,
even when it's for my own good. From
now on, no more secrets, okay?"
Man, she didn't know what she was asking for.
My whole life revolved around secrets--secrets that could get me or
my posse or even my loved ones killed.
Well, if anyone in power took me seriously enough, that is.
But one day, the bastards might, and it would just be safer for
everyone--especially Dana and Billy-- if I took my secrets with me.
The less they knew, the better.
I knew Scully was going to be disappointed in me, but all I could
promise her was, "I'll try my best, sweetheart."
She gave a wistful half-grin.
Dana is a smart woman, and has been around the block a few times.
She knew how these people worked and what we were up against--she
also knew that as much as I loved her, I wouldn't think twice about
breaking my promise if I thought sharing the information would put her in
danger. "That's all I can
ask for, Mel."
<SHIT! How
can I do this to the woman I love--put her through so much distress?
How can I even THINK about putting her second, if only for one
night? Am I outta my mind?>
The phone was in my hand before I could talk myself out of it.
"Fro, whom are you calling at this time of night?" she
asked, curiously.
"The guys. I'm
going to tell them I can't make it."
"Why not?"
"Because--I can't do it, okay? I'll
make up some excuse. I'll tell
them Billy's sick."
She reached over and broke the connection.
"Mel, you are NOT going to use our son as your alibi,"
she informed me, resolutely.
"Fine! I'll say *I'm*
sick. I'll say I twisted my
ankle. I broke my leg.
SOMETHING!"
"You know, I think they're going to figure out
you were fibbing when you don't show up at the Warehouse Monday with a
cast," she teased. "What
happened to your 'no more lies' pledge?"
"That promise was between us, babe, not the guys.
They'll just have to make it on their own tonight."
She shook her head. "I've
seen the Keystone Kops in action--they need you, Mel."
"But Dana. . ."
Gesturing to the front door with her chin, she announced, "You better
hurry--you don't want to be late."
I stared at her, incredulously. "You're
not going to stop me?"
"I wish I could," she sighed.
"I'm really afraid for you.
But it wouldn't be fair to the guys--or to the American people.
They have a right to know, remember?"
<Oh, God, how I love this woman!>
"You know, one day we're gonna break the big one," I
assured her. "It's just a
matter of time now. And you
can tell everyone you knew me when I was a nobody."
"I'm looking forward to it.
Now go, before I change my mind."
I leaned over, cupped her precious face in my hands,
and tenderly kissed her. "Do
you have a clue how much I love you?"
She smiled affectionately. "I
have some idea."
With a final small peck, I stood up and headed for
the door. Just as I was
picking up my knapsack I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Don't forget this," and Dana handed me my cell phone.
"In case you need to reach me for bail money."
"Thanks, hon.
And don't worry. I'll
be okay."
"Frohike, I'm a mom.
All I DO now is worry."
I gave a chuckle.
"And you do it so well."
As I reached out for the doorknob, there was another
tap on my shoulder. "Mel,
promise me one thing."
Turning to my lovely spouse, I queried, "What's that?"
She lowered her eyes and bit her lip so endearingly
before she whispered, "Be careful.
And come home. Please.
I refuse to bring William to visit his daddy behind bars."
Her concern touched me deeply.
"I promise," I whispered back.
"But, honey?"
Lifting her bright eyes, she said, "Yes?"
I gave her my best wise-ass smile. "That
was TWO things."
She just rolled her eyes and pondered, "Why the
hell did I ever marry you?"
"Because you realized how suave and dashingly
handsome I was and you couldn’t live one more day without me?" I
ventured.
"I was thinking more along the lines of
temporary insanity," she answered, dryly.
"Six of one, half a dozen of the other--either
way you get egg rolls." I
chuckled as she shook her head ruefully.
"Look, honey, I'll be home by morning.
Don't wait up for me." I
gave her another quick kiss on the cheek, then ran off to save the world
once more.
DANA:
I stayed by the door for a moment before locking up
and making my way back to the sofa. Grabbing
a nearby blanket, I curled up with a book I've wanted to read for some
time, and began the long wait until Frohike was home again, safe and
sound. Only then would I get
back to sleep.
++++++++++++++++++++++
Title:
Florence
Nightingale
Author: J.D. Rush and Shamrock
E-mail: yanksfan462@aol.com
Website: http://itak.slashcity.net
Category: Het/gen
Pairing: Frohike/Scully
Rating: PG for mild language
Summary: Following the events of Confessions
Part 3--Frohike is feeling icky-poo.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Never mine, unless I can convince CC, 1013 and FOX to give them to
me. I'm not holding my breath.
Notes: Special
thanks goes out to dear sweet Shamrock.
She came through big for me on this, and indeed, without her help,
I couldn't have gotten this one to come out the way I wanted it.
She re-worked much of Frohike's dialog for me, and I think she
deserves a writing credit for that. Thanks,
honey!
Florence
Nightingale
By: J. D. Rush
Sunday, March 24, 2002
"AAAACCHHHOOOOOOO!!"
The sound greets me as I walk through the door.
I find it strangely reassuring--at least nothing has changed in the
couple of hours I've been gone. Dropping
off my bundles in the kitchen, I then make my way to Mel's bedroom.
I knock once and poke my head into the door.
Poor Mel--lying there under a mound of covers, his quilt pulled up
almost over his head, a huge pile of used Kleenex decorating his night
table. As I stand there he
lets loose with another loud sneeze, followed by a coughing fit.
My guy was a hurting cowpoke.
"Hi, Mel--I'm home," I say cheerfully as I
enter his room and sit down carefully on the side of his bed.
"How are you doing?"
"How do you DINK I'm doing?" he snarls--or attempts to snarl.
It doesn't have quite the same impact since his voice is barely a
whisper due to the laryngitis. "I'm
DYIN' over 'ere."
A VERY hurting cowpoke.
"It's just a cold, Frohike.
Stop being so melodramatic."
"I've HAD codes before," he informs me.
"Dis is not a code. Dis
is the Pervuvian Deth Fuu."
"I doubt it's the Peruvian Death Flu, Mel,"
I sigh, dramatically.
"So's you what kinda doctor YOU are," he
grouses.
"Well, whatever it is, maybe it'll teach you to
wear a coat when you go out snooping in the middle of winter," I
can't help rubbing in.
"Doh, ha-ha.
You're do fubby, Dana."
"They DO say laughter is the best medicine.
By the way, have you checked your temperature lately?"
"Doh."
I grab up the digital thermometer from the little table and aim it
for his mouth. "Dat
bedder not be Billy's rectal therm. . ." and while his mouth is open
in full rant, I shove it on home. I
may have shut him up momentarily, but his flashing hazel eyes speak
volumes--specifically, once he can get out of that bed, I'm a dead woman.
I leave it in a couple of minutes longer than
necessary (I'm sure the AMA would forgive me this abuse of power) then
pull it out. 101.7.
Crap.
A SERIOUSLY hurting cowpoke.
"You do dat on purpose," he accuses me,
then nods at the device. "Doh
what's da damage?"
"Bad enough," I answer, vaguely.
"We need to get your fever down."
"How can I habe a feber?" he protests.
"I'm freezing."
"Exactly. Look,
I'm going to get you something to drink.
You have to ingest plenty of fluids."
"I don't tubbose Old Granddad is on list of
abbroved fluids?"
I chuckle at his sickly little joke.
"I'll see what I can do for you."
I walk out, with him still grumbling in the background, and head
back to the kitchen. I dig out
a bottle of Gatorade from one of the shopping bags I brought home, and
pour a glass for him before putting the rest away in the fridge, along
with the other groceries I had picked up.
From another bag, I pull out the large Tupperware container Mom
gave me. Lifting the cover, I
get an instant whiff of the delicious aroma as it escapes.
Mom's homemade chicken soup. <If
this doesn't make Mel feel better, nothing will.>
I spoon some into a mug and put it into the microwave to heat up
before returning to his room.
By now, he's managed to push himself up in the bed a
bit, but he looks like he could collapse at any moment.
I again sit on the side of his bed and hold out the glass to him.
His eyes twinkle when he sees what I've got.
Taking the glass from me, swallows a healthy gulp before asking,
"So, where were you?"
Pointing to the glass, I answer, "Well, I had to lay in some
supplies. And I also took
Billy to mom's house for a couple of days to get him away from Typhoid
Frohike."
"Doh, you're just a laugh riot today,
Dana," he grumbles. I'm
just about to tease him some more when I hear the microwave 'beep'.
"What's dat?" he asks, curiously.
"Lunch."
"Dot hungry," he mumbles, draining the rest of his drink.
"You have to eat, Frohike," I sigh.
"You have to keep your strength up."
He hands me back his empty glass. "Only
if I can habe dome more of this. With
maybe a cubble of ice cubes?"
Seeing an opportunity for more teasing, I purr, "What's the magic
word, Mel?"
The first hint of a smile in nearly 24 hours crosses
his face. "Please?"
I smile back as I tell him, "I think I can handle that order.
Be right back." With
that, I hightail it back to the kitchen to get everything ready.
First, a nice tall glass of Gatorade (with a couple of ice cubes),
bottles of Vitamin C and Tylenol, and a box of Nyquil Liqui-caps.
Then, the hot mug of chicken soup, a couple of chicken salad
sandwiches (also courtesy of Mom), and a small bag of potato chips join
the feast. I place everything
onto a serving tray, along with a can of Diet Coke for myself, and
balancing it carefully, I carry it back his room.
I note he must be feeling a BIT better--his TV is now on and he's
watching 'Meet the Press'. (Although,
without his glasses, I wonder how much of it he can actually see.)
I carefully place the tray over his lap and once more
take my seat on the bed next to him. Spying
his glasses on the edge of the nightstand, I retrieve them for him; he
utters a grateful, 'Dank 'ou', as he slips them on.
Once he can see again, he gets a clear view of the generous spread
before him. "Where'd you
get all dis?" he questions, clearly stunned.
"Mom. She's been cooking
like a demon since she found out you were sick.
I think she likes you, Mel."
I shake out a couple of Tylenol for him, which he takes without
complaint.
"She's a bery special lady."
"Yes, she is." And I
hand him a couple of vitamins.
Once he has swallowed them, he asks, "She doesn't bind taking care of
Billy today?"
I open the box of liqui-caps and hand two of the pills to Mel.
"Actually, she's going to keep him for a couple of days, just
to be on the safe side."
He gets them down, then inquires, "But what about her job?"
I pull open the bag of chips and add a few to the plate with my
sandwich. "She's taking a
couple of personal days."
Almost shrinking into himself, he sighs, "I'm doh dorry, Dana.
I didn't mean to be duch a bodder."
"Mel, it happens," I tell him, gently, patting his hand
for good measure. "Don't
worry about it. Just get
better, okay?"
"I really hate being tick," he grumbles.
"I know."
He puts his glass back on the tray as he proclaims,
"I'm tubbosed to be the strong one, the prodector.
The one DOING the comfording."
"And you do all three very well, Frohike,"
I reassure him. "But
sometimes, it's someone else's turn to do those things.
It's been so long since I've had the opportunity--I was afraid I
was out of practice."
"Doh way. You've
got a great bedtide banner," he leered.
"You sweet-talker.
Now eat up before it gets cold."
He sips at a spoonful of soup and moans happily.
"Dis is delicious."
"Yeah, Mom used to make it for us whenever we'd get sick.
We actually used to
look forward to cold and flu season."
I pick up his TV remote. "So,
anything on?"
"Don't know. Haben't
checked yet." He then
adds, shyly, "Are you joining be?"
I smile at him warmly. "If
you want the company. If not,
I'll take my sandwich and leave you alone."
"Doh I. . .I'd really like dat, Dana."
He gives me a brave smile in return as he takes the remote from me
and starts flipping around. "Basketball?"
"Knicks?"
"You too?"
"What can I say. . . Mulder corrupted me."
"Dope--it's The Heat verses the Mabs."
"The Mavericks?
I'll pass."
"Auto racink?"
"Mel, driving around in a circle for three hours doesn't impress
me."
"Well, excuuuussseee be.
Golf?"
"Is that even a sport?"
"Ban, and I thought LANGLY was bicky.
Movie?"
"If you can find a good one."
"I don't do Lifedime movies, Dana."
"Good. Neither do
I."
"Hey, dook, 'Cabbyshack'."
"Not on a dare. Try
again."
"What about 'Men In Black'?"
"Do you know how many times Mulder dragged me to
that one?"
"Prob'ly as many dimes as I dragged Byers.
There's always 'Hunt For Red October'."
"Oooh, Sean Connery. Alec
Baldwin. Sam Neill.
Tim Curry. AND James
Earl Jones? I think we have a
winner."
"Dure, Dana--kick be when I'm down."
"Sorry, Mel."
So we sit and eat and joke and watch the movie and
somewhere along the line, Mel's head drops onto my shoulder, softly
snoring in his slumber. Poor
guy--this cold's really wiped him out.
I think about getting rid of the tray, but that would mean
disturbing him, and he really needs his rest.
Instead, I carefully remove his glasses and replace them on the
nightstand.
Knowing I'm stuck there as his pillow for the time
being, I kick off my shoes and make myself comfortable on his bed.
I can't help myself brushing his hair out of his face--my fingers
gliding over his still warm forehead reminds me we have a ways to go
before this bug is through with him and his fever breaks.
But it's not so bad playing Florence Nightingale--Frohike deserved
some pampering for a change. I
kiss him lovingly on the cheek and whisper, "Sleep tight, sweet
prince," before turning my attention back to the movie.
++++++++++++++++++++
Title: Lean On Me
Author: J. D. Rush
E-mail: yanksfan462@aol.com
Website: http://itak.slashcity.net
Category: Het Romance
Pairing: Byers/Reyes
Rating: PG/PG-13 for disturbing visuals from
the TV series.
Summary: Reyes comes home from a case, but
can't leave it behind.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Never mine, unless I can convince CC, 1013 and FOX to give them to
me. I'm not holding my breath.
Notes: Contains spoilers for "Hellbound";
minor mention from 'The Field Where I Died'.
And special thanks to the one and only, Kylara, for another great
beta job. (I still haven't
forgiven you for pointing out the LGM telephone thing, though.)
Continuality Note: Okay, I'm veering off the
path again. This is the second
Byers/Reyes story that takes place within the Big Things Universe.
I know I've said I abandoned the 9th season canon, and to an extent
I have, but this episode still haunts me--as I'm sure it does Agent Reyes.
This is my vision of what may have happened after the last 'i' was
dotted and the last 't' crossed. I
will admit I only saw this episode once--I found it just too disturbing to
watch it again. So any
mistakes or inconsistencies, well, I apologize in advance.
However, in order to make this episode fit in with my
universe, I've had to change the timeline from the television series.
(Since I've changed so much at this point in the game, what's a
little thing like this between friends, right?)
+++++++++++++++
"The
souls come back together. Different,
but always together. Again and
again to learn." -- Mulder/Jewish Woman:
'The Field Where I Died'
Title: Can I Have This Dance?
Author: J. D. Rush
E-mail: yanksfan462@aol.com
Website: http://itak.slashcity.net
Category: Het Romance
Pairing: Frohike/Scully
Rating: R, for sexual situations
Summary: It takes two to tango, after all.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Never mine, unless I can convince CC, 1013 and FOX to give them to
me. I'm not holding my breath.
Notes: I know nothing about the Tango, except
what I picked up from the LGM episode, "Tango de los
Pistoleros", and from a website.
Any mistakes or misinterpretation is all mine.
I did what I needed to do to tell the story.
I apologize in advance.
Dedication: To
Vel~, for her tireless encouragement.
This one's for you, kiddo.
Can I Have This Dance?
By: J. D. Rush
Sunday, April 7, 2002
"EEEEK!!!!"
The very unScully-like girlie-scream had me off and
running. Standing outside the
bathroom where the noise had come from, I pounded on the door and cried
out, "Scully, are you okay in there?"
"NO! I'm
not okay!" came the distressed answer.
Trying the doorknob and finding it locked, I asked,
"What's wrong?" even though I was scared of hearing the answer.
"Get in here and look at this!" Dana
wailed, as the door suddenly unlocked from inside.
I didn't need to be told twice.
I pushed the door open and rushed into the room, only to find Dana
standing on the bathroom scale. She
was dressed in just a large bath towel, a matching one wrapped around her
still-wet hair. After taking a
moment to enjoy the view, I cleared my throat and questioned, "What
is it?"
She just stared at me, even as she gestured towards
the scale. "Frohike!
I'm up to 116 pounds.
That puzzled me.
"Is that a problem?"
"I've gained six pounds since I married
you!" she squealed. "That's
nearly a pound a month!"
I looked her up and down.
Wherever she was hiding it, I couldn't tell.
"Are you sure?"
Gesturing towards the scale, she stated, "The
scale doesn't lie."
"Well, maybe it's just baby fat," I tried
to reason.
Her eyebrow shot up.
"You think I'm fat?"
I backpedaled quickly, "No, that's not what I
meant. All I'm saying is,
well, you DID gain some weight when you were pregnant with Billy and
perhaps. . ."
She cut me off before I could finish my thought.
"And I lost it all. Mel,
I've been 110 since the day I graduated from the Academy."
Trailing my eyes over her once more, I said,
"Dana, honey, I don't know what you're so upset about.
I can't even see it. You
look great. Incredible,
even."
"But. . ." she started to protest, but I
put up my hand to stop her.
"So it's a couple of pounds.
Who cares?"
With a heavy sigh, she informed me, "*I* care.
If I let myself go. . ."
"I'd still love you," I insisted.
She tilted her head and gave me a indulging smiled.
"I know you would, Mel, but I don't know how I'd feel about
myself."
"That sounds like something from a Richard
Simmons infomercial," I joked.
Stepping off the scale, she sat down, ladylike, on
the small step stool sitting in the corner.
She fixed me with her piercing blue eyes and said, "I know
this is going to sound silly, Mel, but when I look good I feel good.
Knowing I'm in shape lets me do my job efficiently, without any
doubts as to my ability. I'm
not doing it for vanity's sake – I'm doing it for my own piece of
mind."
"I'm sorry, Dana," I replied, penitently.
"I shouldn't have teased you.
I didn't realize how important this was to you."
She stood up, took another glance at the scale and
whined, "Looks like diet time. And
I'll have to find a few minutes to get to the gym.
I've really been slacking off lately."
"You could exercise here, you know," I
commented, offhandedly.
"What do you mean?"
Leaning against the doorframe, I crossed my arms over
my chest and explained, "Well, you've been asking me to teach you how
to tango, and dancing is an excellent form of exercise."
Her eyes got big and bright and hopeful.
"Really? You'd do
that?"
Patting my own tummy, I snickered, "Hey, I've
put on a couple of pounds these last few years myself.
I wanna stay buff for you."
"When can we start?" she asked, excitedly.
Slipping my hands into my pants pockets, I said,
"Right now, if you want."
Her smile positively beamed.
"Sounds great. Let's
go."
Nodding at her towel-clad figure, I chuckled,
"Like that?"
She looked down at herself and blushed sweetly.
"Oh, I guess not. Give
me a couple of minutes to change, okay?"
"Sure thing, sweetie.
I'll go get things set for us."
With that, I left her to her privacy and headed to the living room
to get everything ready.
As she wandered off to her bedroom to get dressed, I
busied myself with moving the sofa back and getting the coffee table out
of the way to make room a slapdash dance floor.
Next, I went through our CD's, looking for some appropriate music
– something with a good rhythm and beat.
I finally found a Marc Anthony disk of Dana's that I had heard her
play before, and figured it would do until I could get my hands on some
real tango music.
I placed the CD in the player, then headed into my
bedroom to change my own outfit--you can't dance the tango in combat
boots, after all. I dug out my
old costume, disturbed to see it was a bit tight (man, must've gained more
weight than I thought), slipped on my dancin' shoes, and threw on my
Fedora while I was at it. Taking
one last look in the full-length mirror, <Yup, clothes certainly
make the man!>, I made my way back to the living room.
Dana was already waiting for me on the couch.
She jumped up as I entered and announced, "Okay, I'm
ready."
Yeah, that's what SHE thought!
She was decked out in her standard weekend gear:
sweats, a baggy T-shirt, and a pair of sneakers.
One look and I immediately vetoed the entire fashion disaster.
"Not in THAT outfit," I informed her.
"What's wrong with the outfit?" she
demanded. "It's what I'd
wear to the gym."
"The tango is a sensual dance executed on the
balls of your feet," I explained.
"It's almost impossible to do it barefooted or in sneakers.
High heels work best. And
you don't want anything that will be restricting – I'd suggest a dress
or a skirt."
Her mouth quirked into a half-smile.
"I'm sure you would. You're
a leg man, aren't you, Mel?"
"I'm a Dana-man," I retorted with a leer.
"But seriously, the right outfit will go a long way in
establishing the right mood and the right attitude."
And I gestured to my own outfit as proof.
"And those are important?"
"Very."
It was obvious she wasn't completely convinced, but
she finally shrugged her shoulders and huffed, "Fine.
I'll go change."
She returned a few minutes later as I was stretching
and limbering up. (Hey, I'm
not a young turk anymore, okay?) "Will
THIS do?" she asked, sarcastically.
I looked up and got a gander at her get-up.
"Gack!" or something equally intelligent
was my only response to the vision standing in front of me.
The sloppy casuals were gone, replaced with a slinky low-plunging
red dress that clung to every curve she had.
It was highlighted by a thigh-high slit that showed off her shapely
right leg, decorated with a lacy red garter.
<I don't care what she thinks – those extra coupla pounds
looked GREAT on her!> The ensemble was completed with a matching
pair of 4-inch high-heel shoes, their slim straps lovingly encircling her
delicate ankles. When I got my
mouth (and my brain) working again, I managed to wheeze, "Dana!
Where'd you get that dress? I've
never seen you wear it before!"
"For obvious reasons.
It's very – unprofessional. I
bought it in a moment of weakness."
She paused, seemingly embarrassed by her impulsive purchase before
asking, "So . . . what do I do first?"
Tearing my eyes away from that attention-grabbing
outfit, I cleared my throat and told her, "I thought we'd start with
some basic holds and steps, then we can try it with some music.
And later on, I'll show you some of the more advanced stuff.
Is that all right with you?"
"Whatever you say, Frohike.
I'm in your hands."
That decided, I stepped forward, grabbed her around
the waist with my right arm, and jerked her close.
<Man, with those heels, she towers over me!>
She gave a little yelp of surprise, then dissolved into a fit
of giggles. "Dana, honey,
this isn't gonna work if you can't control yourself," I growled, even
though I couldn't help smiling myself.
"Sorry, Mel," she apologized through her
sniggles, and I almost started laughing at her efforts to curb her
amusement. She finally settled
down, took a deep breath and announced, "Okay, I'm ready now."
"All right – first thing to remember is the
tango is slow and sensual, romantic and seductive.
And above all, it's tragic."
"Tragic?" she asked, baffled.
"It's a love story, one that's doomed from the
start," I explained as I held her.
"The man pursues the woman, chases her, declaring his love,
only to be spurned again and again."
And I gave a small smile, thinking of how the dance paralleled our
relationship.
"Then why does he do it?" she inquired,
inquisitively.
"He can't help himself," I continue,
weaving the legend. "She's
an enchantress who has captured his heart, his soul.
He has no choice but to pursue and hope that some day . ."
"Some day?"
I paused a moment before whispering, dramatically,
"Some day. . .he'll be the conqueror."
<If only. . .>
"And that's all told through the dance?"
she pondered.
"When it's done right," I assured her.
"Still interested?"
Her eyes sparkled with curiosity and intrigue.
"More than ever. Let's
go for it."
We spent the next few minutes going through the
warm-up exercises and basic footwork.
I showed her the straight-line and serpentine walking exercises to
get the hang of the specialized intricate movements, especially the way
the ankles and knees should brush each other with each step.
I reminded her not to lift her feet too high, that they should skim
the floor, and that her head and back should be straight at all times.
Dana quickly mastered the skills, and I felt she was ready to
attempt the eight basic steps that compromise the dance.
My lovely partner did remarkably well, only stepping
on my toes a couple of times before she was quite proficient.
She proved to be such an excellent student that we soon moved onto
the more advanced Ochos figure-eights and the Arrastre sweeps.
With each new challenge, Dana more than exceeded my expectations,
and, in fact, it was hard to tell who was having more fun – I hadn't
enjoyed dancing this much in years.
Finally, I knew she was ready to try stringing all
the lessons together, and I turned on the music.
Instantly the slow rhythmic guitar strains that open the CD filled
the room. I grabbed her
passively around the waist once more. . .and the dance began.
"I have been in love and been alone,
I have traveled over many miles to find a home,
There's that little place inside of me,
That I never thought could take control of
everything." 1
"Dana," I marveled, as she executed a
perfect figure-eight, "you're magnificent.
Are you sure you never did this before?"
She giggled, "Nope.
I just had a great teacher."
"'Cause I only feel alive,
When I dream at night,
Even though she's not real it's all right.
'Cause I only feel alive,
When I dream at night,
Every move that she makes holds my eyes,
And I fall for her every time." 1
She was light on her feet, lighter than air, and
Lord, did she feel good pressed up against me.
Her technique was impeccable, as if she had been dancing the tango
all her life. She exuded sex
appeal and attitude, and I found myself falling deeper in love with this
exquisite goddess I held in my arms.
"I've so many things I want to say,
I'll be ready when the perfect moment comes my
way,
I had never known what's right for me,
Till the night she opened up my heart and set it
free." 1
I released her in order to perform a Calesita spin. .
.and then suddenly I was no longer falling in love.
I was just plain falling, as Dana's heel got caught in the carpet.
She stumbled into my arms and the momentum toppled me over
backwards. We crashed to the
floor together, my hat flying from my head.
Luckily I was able to break her fall, landing on my back, but the
impact knocked the wind from me. I
closed my eyes and groaned loudly.
When I opened my eyes again, I found myself staring
into Dana's big blue ones. "Mel,
are you okay?" Dana asked, concerned, from her prone position above
me.
"Yeah, I think I'll live," I wheezed.
"Good, because if I don't laugh, I'm going to
explode," and she broke out into hysterical laughter.
"Glad you can get your jollies at my
expense." I tried to
sound gruff, but soon I was joining her, as we were both overcome by a
case of the giggles.
She gulped a couple of times, trying to get herself
under control, and said, "Crap, I was doing so good too."
"You were doing great, kiddo."
And it occurred to me that she hadn't moved – she still lay
full-out flat on top of me, breathing hard from our activities.
She smelled heavenly, and she looked – she looked like an angel.
An ethereal red-haired angel. Her
sweet bow lips, just centimeters from mine, parted slightly, and then. . .
She was kissing me--tenderly at first, but quickly
building in heat and intensity. A
shiver went down my back as her tongue timidly licked against my lower
lip, shyly asking to be admitted; I parted my lips and gladly allowed her
to enter. A flash fire shot
through me as her mouth plundered mine, her tongue wrapping itself around
my own.
While her lips were busy, so were her hands.
They nimbly unbuttoned my shirt
and opened it wide. I
felt her fingers slide over my nipples, stopping only long enough to pinch
them playfully, and I moaned into her mouth.
With a final nip at my lower lip, she pulled away
from me, and I groaned in disappointment and frustration.
"Did you like that?" she asked, coyly, as she once again
pinched my tender nubs. When I
let loose with another loud groan, she smirked and informed me, "Then
you'll REALLY like this."
Before I knew what she was doing, she had pushed
herself upright, straddling my waist, her shapely behind resting against
my rapidly hardening cock. She
wiggled a bit to get comfortable (or drive me crazy – not sure which)
then bent over me, and began leaving a trail of kisses along my neck and
across my pecs (what there is of them).
When she got to my right nipple, she lapped at it like a kitten,
and the little mewling sounds she was making only enhanced the image.
I threw my head back and grunted as she scraped the sensitive flesh
with her perfect teeth, laving it with her tongue to take the sting away.
Soon I was squirming beneath her, whimpering under her
ministrations. Content with
her work on the right nub, she started in on the left.
Once she had reduced me to a jabbering incoherent
lump, she abandoned my now raw and well-loved nipples and resumed her
journey downward. "Mmmmm
. . .I like this," she sighed, running her fingers through my
abundant chest hair. "So
soft and furry." Her lips
soon joined her hands and the tiny vibrations from her satisfied humming
tickled my hypersensitive skin.
"Oh, Dana. . ." I moaned, deliriously.
I watched with growing fascination (pun intended) as
she doggedly began to unbuckle my belt and unzip my pants over my
straining erection. As her
hand fondled my hard-on through my boxers, she asked, "Was I
really?"
"Really what?"
By now all the blood had gone south and I was having a hard time
thinking clearly.
"My dancing," she explained.
"You said I was doing great."
"Best partner I ever had," I told her
honestly, and it had nothing to do with what her fingers were doing to my
naughty bits.
"Better than Mykita?" she purred.
I sighed, deeply, "There's no comparison,
Angel."
She gave me a huge smile and whispered, huskily,
"Good answer, Mel." With
that, she leaned down until her hot breath caressed me through the thin
cotton material. I felt her
kissing, then licking, a sensitive spot right below my belly-button as she
hooked her fingers through the waistband of my shorts and started dragging
them down over my hips. Her
breath was even hotter now, as it struck naked skin.
She looked up at me, a twinkle in her eye, and a
smirk playing on her lips. "Ready
to tango, lover?" she cooed, as she leaned over my rock-hard cock.
"Ohhhh, Daaaana. . ." I moaned in ecstasy,
closing my eyes as I awaited a trip to Nirvana.
But instead of feeling her warm mouth on my flesh, I
felt a sharp 'slap' across my face. Then
a couple more, followed by a stern command:
"MEL! Wake
up!"
"Hunauh?"
"Are you okay?" she demanded.
"Did you say something, Angel?" I slurred, groggily.
A loud sigh rang throughout the room, and I risked
opening my eyes. Dana was
kneeling beside me, her hand now gently caressing the same cheek she was
just slapping seconds earlier. "Thank
God you're okay. You had me
worried."
"Wha' happened?" I asked, as I tried to sit
up. Bad move.
Pressing her hand against my chest, she pushed me
back down. "Just lay
there a moment," she responded in her 'Dr. Scully' tone.
"You bumped your head on the floor when you fell.
You've been unconscious for a couple of minutes.
I was starting to get nervous when you weren't responding.
By the way, what's with this 'Angel' stuff?"
I cut in, "Unconscious? Then
you mean you didn't. . .?" I
let the sentence trail off, as the meaning of her words finally registered
to me. <It was nothing
but a dream? SHIT!>
"Didn't do. . .what?" she posed, curiously.
I just shook my head--another bad move.
"You wouldn't believe me if I told you."
"Don't be so sure. I did
work with Mulder all those years," she laughed.
"Yeah, right."
I pretended to laugh along, happy to drop the whole line of
conversation. I mean, there
was no way in hell I was going to confess what I was fantasying while I
was out cold. With Dana's
help, I was able to sit up, resting against the sofa.
She carefully ran her hand over the back of my head, and content
that my brain was no more scrambled than it was before, she sat down next
to me. I took the opportunity
to ask her, "So--what'd you think of your first lesson?"
"First--and last," she informed me.
"This dance is far too dangerous.
I'm heading back to the gym, where it's safe."
"Awww, Dana.
Don't let one little mishap put you off.
You were doing really good."
"Really?"
"Yeah, really.
I think you have a lot of potential."
She beamed at me, visibly pleased by my words.
"Thanks, Mel. But
I think you just want to see me in this dress again."
I gave her the requisite leer and wink.
"You know me too well, my dear."
"Potential, huh?"
It was obvious she was mulling it over.
"You were amazing, Dana.
Truly amazing. I can't
remember the last time I enjoyed the tango so much."
Her eyes sparkled like a thousand stars.
"I had a lot of fun, too, Mel.
I'd. . .I'd like to try it again.
If you'd be willing to try."
"It'd be a pleasure.
Just give me a couple of days to recuperate, okay?
This dance really sucks the energy right outta me."
Patting my shoulder, she assured me, "No problem.
I think I need a couple of days to recover myself."
She gracefully stood up and added, "I don't know about you,
but I'm starving. What say I
wake William and we go out for dinner tonight?
I could really go for Italian."
"What about your diet?" I commented.
"Party-pooper.
You HAD to remind me, didn't you?" she pouted.
"Fine. I'll have a
salad and watch YOU eat Italian, okay?"
I reached up and grasped her hand in mine.
"I'll make a deal with you.
We'll BOTH have salads, and watch BILLY eat Italian."
"Oh no. That
child's not eating spaghetti again until he's in high school."
And we both laughed at the memories of Billy's first encounter with
pasta--a week later I was STILL cleaning up tomato sauce.
As the laughter petered out, Dana leaned down and kissed me on the
cheek. "Thanks for the
lesson, Mel. You're such a
great teacher." And with
that, she headed off towards her room.
I sat there on the floor a moment, my fingers
retracing over the burn mark her lips had made on my cheek.
<Oh, Dana--if you only knew all the lessons I wanted to teach
you. . .>
THE END
1) "When I Dream at Night" by Marc Anthony.
Written by Dan Shea and Robin Thicke.
+++++++++++++++++
Title: The Prodigal Son Returns
Author: J.D. Rush
E-mail: yanksfan462@aol.com
Website: http://itak.slashcity.net
Category: Gen; Het Romance
Pairing: Frohike/Scully
Rating: PG-13 for some bad language
Summary: Mulder returns and causes his usual
amount of chaos.
Disclaimer: As if you don't now by now.
CC, 1013, FOX--yadda, yadda, yadda.
Author's Note: Lots
of little spoilers for lots of different episodes, including "Clyde
Bruckman's Final Repose". HOWEVER,
there is a big one from season 8's episode, "Per Manum".
This was the episode where CC disclosed that Scully's baby was
conceived through artificial insemination. . .or at least that's how I
took it to be, even at the end when Scully says it didn't work and Mulder
tells her not to give up, that miracles can still happen.
So, as far as I'm concerned, this is the canon of William's
existence--not the crap CC threw at us in season 9 (which, in this series,
didn't happen anyway.)
.
Author's Note Deux: I'm not exactly sure how
the academic schedule works at Quantico.
For my story model, I checked Google, and used as an example their
'Counter terrorism Lecture Series', which started January 15, and went
until April 30. Under this
kind of scheduling, I'm assuming that Scully is now on break from her
forensics classes, at least for a few weeks until the next 'semester'
begins. If I'm wrong about
this, I apologize.
Special Thanks: Once more to Shamrock, for a
fab beta and some kick-ass suggestions.
The Prodigal Son Returns
By: J. D. Rush
Thursday, May 16, 2002
LGM Headquarters
8:11 A.M.
SCULLY
*Knock, Knock*
"Hold yer horses--I'm coming."
A moment later, I hear the numerous locks unlocking, and I'm facing
a very sleepy, very disheveled Ringo Langly.
Rubbing his eyes and yawning, he mumbles, "Scully?
What are you doing. . .?"
"I need to talk to Frohike," I cut him off
in mid-sentence, already shouldering my way into the Warehouse.
"He's not here," he tells me, his eyes
instantly lighting up when he sees William in my arms.
He snatches the child from me and gives him a big hug.
"Hey, little dude!"
"Don't cover for him, Langly," I shoot back brusquely.
"Where is he?"
"I don't know," he insists in his petulant whine, still more
interested in playing with my son than with my inquiry.
I'm seconds from reaching for his neck to wring the information out of him
when Byers strolls out of his bedroom.
"What's going on?" he asks, innocently.
"She's looking for Frohike," Langly informs
him. "I tried to tell her
he's not here, but she won't believe me."
"I'm not in the mood for this bullshit,
guys," I snarl. "Just
get Frohike out here, NOW!"
"He's telling the truth, Dana," Byers says
calmly, tying the sash on his bathrobe.
"I haven't seen Frohike since he left here yesterday
afternoon. He was going to
pick up a small cake for William's birthday."
Suddenly he stops. "Didn't
he make it home?" he asks, concerned.
<Christ Almighty!
They're telling me the truth. Frohike
isn't here. But if he's not
here, then where is he?> "Yes,
he made it home," I answer, " but when I got up this morning,
this was on the kitchen table." From
out of my jacket pocket, I hand Byers the short note that had been propped
up against the sugar bowl.
He studies for a moment then looks back at me, his
eyebrow shooting up in bafflement. But
before he can say anything, Mulder wanders out from another room.
He takes one look at me and asks, "Scully. . .what's going
on?"
"It appears that Frohike has, um, left,"
Byers explains quietly.
"What do you mean, 'left'?" Mulder demands.
Even Langly's finally taking notice of the situation.
Byers hands Mulder the note. "See
for yourself." As Mulder
reads it, Langly sneaks a peek over his shoulder.
After a few seconds, they both look up at me with identical
compassionate expressions.
"It's definitely his handwriting," Langly
proclaims.
"So I guess we can rule out foul play,"
Mulder concludes, thoughtfully.
I want to scream.
I want to cry. I want
to punch something. I want to
know what the hell is going on.
"Maybe he just went out early on a story?"
Langly suggests. "A
clandestine meeting?"
I don't even bother responding to it.
We all know the theory is crap.
I mean, the damn note says:
"Dana,
I'm sorry, but I have to leave.
It's for the best. Please
don't look for me.
Have a happy life. Tell
Billy I love him and give him a kiss for me.
I'll always treasure the time we had together.
I love you.
Frohike."
Does that honestly sound like something he jotted
down because he was meeting a story contact?
And I haven't even dropped the big bombshell on them. . . yet.
"Then how do you explain the bankbook and the car title?"
I challenge them.
"Bankbook?" Byers repeats.
"Car title?" Mulder asks, intrigued.
"Next to the note, I found the title and the car
keys to his GTO, along with his savings book and some life-insurance
papers."
I'm sure Langly's mouth is going to hit the floor.
"The keys AND the title?" he echoes, clearly puzzled.
"But. . .but that car is his pride and joy.
Why would he leave that stuff behind?"
<Whoop-de-do! Wake
the neighbors! I do believe
Langly's finally gotten it!>
"Sounds like he wanted to make sure you had
money and a way to make more," Mulder deduces.
"He was providing for you before he left."
<Gee, no shit, Sherlock!>
"I figured that out, Mulder," I huff.
"What I want to know is WHY he left and where the hell he
is!"
"Did you check the hospitals?" Mulder
inquires.
"Yeah, I called all the emergency rooms in the
area right after I found the note," I inform them.
"No one matching Frohike's description was admitted in the
last few hours."
It's quiet for a moment before Byers works up the
courage to ask me, "Did you two have a fight?"
"No, nothing like that," I assure them.
"We've had a few little spats, mostly about the upcoming move,
but nothing major. We've been
getting along great." Byers
just looks at me, his eyebrow arced accusingly.
I can almost see the wheels turning, and believe me, it's the first
thought that crossed my mind this morning.
He's thinking that this has some connection to my agreement with
Frohike, our 'no-sex' pact. But
as soon as the idea had come to me, I dismissed it.
Frohike has never indicated there was any problem with our
arrangement, and he's never asked me to renege on our deal--although I'd
be quite willing to consider it. No,
there had to be some other reason for his sudden vanishing act.
Just then, Jimmy Bond wanders out of the bathroom.
He obviously has just showered; he's in a terrycloth robe and he's
towel-drying his hair. Giving
me a big smile, he greets us all, "Hey guys, Agent Scully--what's
going on?"
"It appears we have a problem," Byers
explains in his usual diplomatic way.
"What kind of problem?" Jimmy wants to
know.
"Frohike flew the coop," Langly announces
in his usual undiplomatic way.
Mulder groans painfully.
"Real tactful, Langly."
By now I'm reaching the end of my rope and snap at
the four of them, "Look guys, is it possible to carry on this silly
'Seinfeld' routine some other time? Frohike
is out there somewhere and the clock's ticking."
"She's right," Mulder agrees with me.
"We need a plan if we're going to track him down."
Langly flops into a nearby chair, still cuddling William.
"Well, he doesn't have that much of a head start.
And without his car he couldn't have gotten far."
Byers nods. "That's
a good point, Ringo." Turning
to me, he queries, "Was anything missing that you noticed?"
I know little things can add up to a lot in a
situation like this, so I quickly think back to the apartment.
Everything looked like it was still in place--nothing was missing
as far as I could remember. "No,
he didn't take anything."
"Clothes, underwear, nothing?" Mulder prompts.
Oh, they meant HIS stuff--I thought they were
implying he had stolen some things from me.
"His knapsack, some of his wardrobe.
Not much," I tell them, going over in my mind what his room
had looked like when I investigated it after finding the note.
"The bathroom was clean--razor, toothbrush were gone.
And of course, his laptop."
I hesitate for a moment, unsure whether I should
mention that the die-cast model car Mom gave him for Christmas is gone,
too. He left the base, but the
car was missing. Somehow that
scared me more than the note or the bankbook or anything else.
He loved that model. If
he took it with him. . .better not to think about it.
"What about credit cards?" Mulder presses.
Langly, Byers, and myself all just shoot him 'The
Look'. "Mulder, none of
us own any credit cards," Byers explains, patiently.
"Yeah, dude--too easy for Big Brother to track
you," Langly continues.
"He refused to even use a Stop & Shop
supersaver card," I finish. "Said
he didn't want the world to know what kind of peanut butter we buy."
"Geez, there's no reason to get snippy,"
Mulder pouts. "I'm only
thinking out loud here."
"Maybe he took his checkbook?" Jimmy
suggests.
I shake my head, "No, the checking account is in
my name only. It's the way he
wanted it. But a good idea,
Jimmy." He beams at my
compliment.
"Okay, so he probably only has the cash that was
on him," Mulder analyzes. "That
leaves out taxis. Too
expensive."
"And airports," Jimmy pipes up.
"That means we're looking at bus stations,"
Byers comments.
"Or trains," Mulder adds, already reaching
for the phone on the workstation.
"Guys, this is Frohike we're talking about," I remind them.
"Do you really think he'd do something so obvious as take a
bus or a train?" Mulder
pauses for a second before returning the receiver.
"Then what do you suggest, Scul?" he asks.
"What do you think he did?"
The truth is I have no idea what he may have done or
why he did it, and I certainly have no clue where to begin looking.
I'd been so sure he would be here at HQ, or at least would have
stopped by and told the guys where he was going.
Now we were left with virtually no clues and no place to even begin
looking. At this point, he
might have as much as a six-hour head start on us.
The thought that he may have just hitched a ride to somewhere
springs to mind and I immediately shove it right back out again--the idea
is just too scary to dwell on. A
man like Frohike, with no ties and no destination will be like looking for
a needle in a haystack. Finding
myself near tears, I whisper, "All I know for certain is if Mel wants
to get lost, he will. He knows
how to do it. No one will be
able to find him."
Mulder steps over to me and give me a big supportive
hug. "Scully, don't
worry--we'll find him," he promises.
"I know a few of his hang-outs," Byers
announces. "I can check
them out, see if he's been around."
"I know some of his old hippie buddies,"
Langly reveals. "Maybe
he's hanging with one of them or something."
"And I know some haunts of my own," Mulder
admits, running a gentling hand down my back.
"He won't escape our net."
"I wish I could believe you," I mumble, my
voice hitching as it sinks in that he's really gone, and even his best
friends don't have any idea where he might be.
Mulder just flashes me his playful grin.
"That's always been your problem, Scully. . . you won't
believe," he jokes, trying to lighten my mood.
Usually it works--today it doesn't.
"So, what do you guys want me to do?"
We all turn to face Jimmy--truthfully, I had forgotten he was there.
Langly's the one who finds his tongue first and says, "Stay
here, in case he shows up."
"But I want to help," the young man protests.
"You will be helping," Mulder tells him.
"You'll be our dispatcher."
"What's a dispatcher?" Jimmy asks us.
"We'll call in periodically, let you know how
the search is going, and you can relay any information the others have
uncovered," Mulder explains.
Byers adds, "It's a very important job, Jimmy,
but I know you can handle it."
He flashes us all a big smile.
It's obvious how pleased he is that the guys are putting so much
faith in him. "You can
count on me!" he replies, proudly.
"What about reinforcements?" Mulder
questions. "Maybe we
should call in Skinner."
I shake my head emphatically. "No.
We shouldn't bother him with this.
Not yet, at least."
"But he has access to better resources," Byers reasons.
"It may be a good idea."
"It doesn't matter, John.
This isn't a missing persons case or a kidnapping--as Mulder
pointed out, there's no evidence of foul play at all.
There's nothing Skinner would be able to do.
The F.B.I. doesn't go out looking for 50 year-old runaways."
"Well, what about Doggett and Reyes?"
Langly suggests.
"They're out of town this week and won't be back
until Saturday at the earliest," Byers informs us, the slightest
touch of disappointment in his voice; it sounds like he really misses
Monica.
"Well, I'm sure the three of us will be
fine," Mulder declares.
"Four," I correct him, decisively.
Mulder places his hands on my shoulders and gives
them a little squeeze. Looking
deep into my eyes, he commands gently, "Scully, go home."
"But. . ."
"Dana, he's right," Byers says, putting in
his two cents. "It'd be a
good idea to have someone there, in case Frohike changes his mind and
comes back."
Dammit, I know it makes sense, but I can't help
feeling like I'm being pandered to, like I'm just a silly girl who can't
handle the chase. Leave it up
to 'the real men'. God, I HATE
that feeling. Been dealing
with it my whole life. I was a
special field agent for the fucking F.B.I. . .I think I can handle this.
Still, as much as I hate to admit it, they ARE right.
If we're going to have someone here at the Warehouse, it only makes
sense to have someone at the apartment, too, just in case.
So, swallowing my pride, I mutter, "Okay."
Mulder smiles at me.
He knows how hard that concession was for me to make.
"Do you have any suggestions of your own where we could
look?" he asks.
I'm not sure whether to mention the name that has
been niggling in the back of my mind all morning, but if anyone would
know, it'd be the Gunmen. So,
summoning up my courage, I propose, "Could he have gone back to
Mykita?"
"Moldinado?" Byers squeaks.
"You know about her?"
I nod. "Yeah,
and I know they were. . .close."
"Married, you mean," Langly cuts in.
"Right, married," I repeat through gritted
teeth. "Anyway, he said
you guys met up with her about a year ago."
Three of the four heads bob up and down.
"Is it possible he still has feelings for her, that he'd go
back to her?"
At that, Byers looks over at Langly who looks over at
Jimmy who looks back over at Byers. <Nothing
like that ol' geek-telepathy.>
With a resigned sigh, John finally states, "Well, while it
appeared that he was still--fond--of her, I think that's as far as it
went. Still, it might be a
good place to check out."
"Any other ideas we may not think of,
Scul?" Mulder asks again.
This time, I shake my head no.
Except for here and home, he doesn't really go anywhere else,
unless he's with me or William. That's
what is making this so hard to deal with.
He seemed really happy being a family man.
He was so proud of William, and we truly enjoyed each other's
company. With the exception of
the sex, we had a perfect relationship.
It just didn't make any sense that he would leave so suddenly.
Wait. There
IS one other place he could go. A
long shot, even more so than Mykita, but a possibility nonetheless.
"Long Beach," I blurt out.
Mulder gives me a look like I usually give him when
he starts in on one of his more outlandish UFO cover-up conspiracy
theories. "Why Long
Beach?"
"Maybe he went to Milt's place," I
speculate.
"Milt?" Byers repeats, perplexed.
"Who's Milt?" Langly queries.
"Milton Frohike," I elaborate.
"His brother."
I get four identical sets of blank looks.
As one, they all say, "He's got a brother?"
<Oooookay.
Cross THAT long shot off the list.>
"Guess not, huh?" I shrug sheepishly.
Mulder just shakes his head in the negative.
"Well, unless you have another suggestion, Scul, we should be
heading out. Tick-tock."
With that, Langly hands William back to me then all four of them
head off towards their bedrooms to get dressed, but I stop Mulder as he
passes. He looks over his
shoulder at me, a questioning look on his face.
Swallowing hard, I find myself pleading, "If you
find him, please tell him to come home.
I don't know what the problem is, but whatever it is, we can fix
it." Feeling the tears
prickling my eyes, I add, "And. . .tell him I love him."
Mulder cups my face tenderly and smiles, "WHEN
we find him, you can tell him that yourself."
He gives William a kiss on the cheek, then dashes after the others.
Only when I'm alone with my son do I allow the tears
to flow.
14 Hours Earlier
Wednesday May 15, 2002
6:07 P.M.
Scully Residence
*Knock, Knock*
"I'll get it," I call out to Mel as he
continues to putter around the kitchen finishing up dinner.
Looking through the little peephole, my heart leaps into my throat.
No. It can't be.
I look again to be sure. He's
tanner than the last time I saw him, and his hair is a little bit longer,
but other than that, he looks great--really great--decked out in a pair of
faded blue jeans and a new dark green Henley.
Flinging the door open, I cry out, "Mulder!"
He flashes me a huge toothy grin.
"Hey, Scul, didja miss me?"
I throw my arms around his neck and hug him to death,
tears already streaming down my cheeks; he just chuckles and pulls me
tightly to him. "Yeah, you could say that," I answer, my voice
cracking slightly. "What
are you doing here?"
"Well, THAT'S some greeting!" he responds
in his typical flippant Mulder-manner, even as he continues to hold me.
"I didn't mean it THAT way," I chide him.
"I just meant, well, YOU know what I meant!"
"Yeah, I know," he laughs, drawing away
from me and prying my arms from around his neck.
He turns and steps back into the hallway--next thing I know, he's
lugging a teddy bear as big as me into the apartment.
"You didn't think I'd miss William's birthday, did you?"
he announces.
Shaking my head in disbelief at his choice of gift, I
murmur, "I should have known."
"Hey, what's all the commotion out here. .
.?" Mel's question dies
on his lips as he walks into the living room.
Taking one look at our visitor, he gasps, "Holy Mother of
God."
If anything, Mulder's smile gets even bigger at the
sight of his old friend. "Nice
to see you, too, Melvin," he exclaims, rushing towards a
still-stunned Frohike to wrap him in a huge hug.
"I missed the hell out of you."
Mel just stands there for a moment, obviously as
surprised as I am by Mulder's sudden appearance.
He quickly regroups, however, and is soon returning the embrace
enthusiastically. "Hey,
guy, great to see you, too. Can
you get your hands off my ass now?"
"In your dreams," Mulder smirks, slapping said ass playfully.
Jerking his thumb back in my direction at me, he adds, "I
guess congratulations are in order, eh, you sly dog?"
"Well, she could only resist my charm for so long," Mel jokes,
shrugging his shoulders modestly.
"I gotta say when Scully first told me about you
two, I didn't believe it," Mulder admits with a slight shake of his
head.
Crossing my arms over my chest, I reply, "Well,
you're the one who kept telling me I should believe in extreme
possibilities, Mulder."
He practically rolls his eyes.
"Scully, there's extreme. . .and then there's this."
I step forward to wrap my arm around Frohike's waist,
saying, "Well, love is unpredictable.
You never know when you're going to be hit by Cupid's arrow."
"Yeah, I know," he shoots back with an
inscrutable smile
Meanwhile Mel is looking at me with an incredulous
expression. I think he's
pieced it together that Mulder doesn't know about our special agreement.
I'll admit that his ignorance is completely my fault.
I had written Mulder a couple of weeks after Frohike and I got
married, but I just couldn't bring myself to tell him the circumstances
surrounding that decision. As
far as Mulder knew, our marriage was on the up-and-up.
I'm not quite sure why I didn't tell Mulder the truth
right away. I guess mainly I
didn't want to cast any doubts on Frohike's masculinity, as it were.
I wasn't ashamed of what we had done--in fact, I still think it was
extremely chivalrous and generous and sweet that Mel offered to marry me
and help raise my son. And I'm
continually amazed at how well the arrangement has worked out, how much
fun we have together, how much I enjoy being with him, how my feelings for
him grow stronger day by day. And
he's really been a fantastic father to William.
But I also know many people wouldn't understand such an unusual
relationship, including my ex-partner.
If Frohike wanted to tell him the truth, that was Fro's business.
Myself, I was content to let Mulder continue to believe our
marriage was for real.
"So, when did you get back?" Frohike asks,
breaking into my ponderings.
"Last night," Mulder admits, and I'm momentarily upset that he
didn't come see me immediately, or at least call.
"I'm crashing with the Gunmen for a few days until I can find
a place of my own. They seem
to have a spare bedroom." He
gives us both a knowing wink. "Hope
you don't mind."
That's right--I had forgotten.
Mulder is homeless now. He
let the lease on his apartment lapse right before he left town, and all
his stuff has been sent to a rented storage facility outside of D.C.
Well, except for the fish tank.
Skinner took possession of that from me last summer.
Good thing, too--I was having even less luck keeping the little
guys alive than Mulder did.
"Nah, not at all," Frohike quickly assures
him. "But if you're
looking for any good. . . health films. . .I gave them all to
Langly." I couldn't help
chuckling. I often wondered
what had happened to his 'collection'.
Before we have a chance to continue our reunion,
however, distressed cries ring throughout the apartment.
Frohike just looks at me and jokes, "Sounds like Master
William's up from his nap. I'll
check on him if you check on dinner."
"Sure, Mel," I tell him, then turn to Mulder.
"You're joining us, right?"
Casting his eyes downward and shuffling his feet, he mutters a hesitant,
"Well, I don't want to intrude. . ."
I know my friend too well. While
his words are saying one thing, his whole body is saying 'Please let me
stay!'. "You're not
intruding," I state resolutely. "Frohike
made his famous chicken noodle casserole tonight.
It's William's favorite. And
there's a ton of it."
He looks up with a smile that just lights up the
whole place. "Really?"
"Uh-huh," I smile back.
"Gee, never would've taken you for the next
Julia Child, Frohike," Mulder teases his friend.
"Yeah, I'm not just a pretty face," Mel calls over his shoulder
as he enters William's room.
Looping my arm through Mulder's, I lead him into the
kitchen, praising Frohike's talents. "He's
actually a pretty good cook. I
really lucked out." Craning
my neck to look him in the eye, I add a snide, "Maybe he can give you
lessons someday."
"Hey, I don't need lessons on how to dial up
Chinese take-out," he fires back.
"I'm quite proficient at that."
"I'm sure you are," I giggle, grabbing a
couple of potholders off the counter.
I carefully remove the hot dish from the oven and lift up the cover
to show Mulder. "See?"
Mulder takes a whiff of the perfectly browned
casserole and sighs, "Mmmmm, that DOES smell good."
His stomach must agree as it rumbles loudly.
He just gives me an embarrassed hangdog look.
"Sorry about that."
"When was the last time you ate, Mulder?" I
scold, renewing our long-standing feud.
Mulder would survive on sunflower seeds and black coffee for a week
if I didn't remind him to eat once in a while.
"As a matter of fact, I grabbed a taco with
Langly earlier," he announces smugly.
"Regardless of what you think, I CAN survive without all your
fussing." He pauses for a
second then adds with a grin, "But it's great to hear it again."
"And you'll hear it often," I promise,
opening the door to one of the overhead cupboards to get some
plates."
"Hey, let me get that," Mulder offers,
reaching over my head and pulling down some dishes.
"How many do we need?"
"Just you, me, and Mel," I say, going over to the fridge instead
and getting a fresh pitcher of iced-tea.
I notice Mulder's eyes just light up when he sees the decanter;
maybe it was Kismet that I decided to make it earlier.
"What about your mom?" he asks, placing the plates on the
counter and reaching back up for some glasses.
"Isn't she coming over for the party?"
"We're not having a party tonight," I inform him, digging the
ice cube tray out of the freezer.
He stops in mid-retrieval, one glass in his hand.
Peering over at me, confusion written on his face, he questions,
"But, isn't it William's birthday today?"
"Yeah, but he doesn't know that," I give a conspiratorial smirk.
"Actually, there's going to be a big shindig at Mom's house on
Sunday. Family, friends,
hotdogs, hamburgers. Lots of
potato salad. You WILL be
there, right?" My tone
clearly implies that 'No' is not an option.
"Maybe," he answers warily, returning to
his task and pulling down two more glasses.
"Is Bill going to be there?"
Ahhhh--the reason for his apprehension.
"No, he won't. His
ship is out on maneuvers in the Pacific somewhere.
Believe me, Frohike's just as happy about the situation."
He gives me a big grin as he sets the glasses on the
table. "Then I'll be
there with bells on."
"That makes an interesting picture," I
tease, adding some ice cubes to the glasses while he turns around to get
the plates he had set on the counter.
"I can't wait to see the look on Skinner's face when you walk
into the party."
I swear he almost drops the dishes at the sound of our ex-boss's
name. <Geez, I know
the Big Guy is intimidating but to get THAT rattled just hearing his
name?> "Skinner's
going to be there?" he asks, softly.
"Of course," I cluck, filling the glasses with tea.
"He was at the top of the guest list."
He gapes at that, stunned.
"You mean, you and he. . .?"
"A lot has changed since you left, Mulder,"
I inform him as I return the pitcher and ice cube tray to the fridge and
pull out a large garden salad. Placing
it on the table, I take a seat before continuing, "You were right
about Walter all along. He was
always on our side, and I did him a grave injustice for many years by not
trusting him. I've been trying
to make up for it as best I can. So
we get together whenever possible. In
fact, we just had him over for dinner last week."
I smile broadly. "He's
a great guy--and a great friend."
"How is he doing?
Is he looking well?" my friend inquires anxiously, then,
seemingly embarrassed by his enthusiasm, he turns his back on me and
busies himself digging silverware out of the drawer.
"He's fine," I assure him, "and he
looks fantastic. Says he gets
more sleep now that we're out of his hair. . .well, what's left of
it."
He gives a nervous chuckle at that before asking,
"No more unexpected health problems?"
I know instantly what he's talking about.
A time-bomb that Walter lives with everyday, as I live with my
neck-chip. Those damn
nanocytes had almost been the end of him on numerous occasions.
Each day that passes without another attack makes it easier to
believe the nightmare is over for good, but he'll never be completely
free. Sometimes I wish I could
dig up Krycek's body and kill him again for everything he put me and my
friends through. . .Ratboy didn't suffer enough in my book.
"None so far.
It seems that whatever control Krycek had over him died the day
Alex did. There's been no more
nanocyte activity. As far as
we know, the damn things are no longer active."
I swear I can hear an audible sigh of relief.
As he works his way around the table, setting out the
silverware, he nonchalantly says, "So he's happy, healthy. . .?"
"And lonely," I finish.
"He misses us and the thrill of the chase more than he thought
he would, though he'll never admit it.
But now that you're back, I'm sure he'll have more adventure than
he knows what to do with." I
find myself smirking, knowing that Skinner's life just got a whole lot
more exciting.
"If I have anything to say about it," he
agrees with a smirk of his own. "So
you and the big boss are homeboys now?"
"Mmm-hmmm. In
fact, he's even babysat for us a couple of times.
By the way, we need some salad bowls here."
Giving me an 'aye-aye, captain' salute, he goes over
the cupboards, opening two before he finds the wooden salad bowls; he even
remembers to get the salad thongs without any prompting.
The guy's learning. Coming
back to the table, he confides, "I'm really glad to hear you say that
you've changed your mind about the Skinman, because there's something I
really need to talk to you about. . ."
"Oh, you sure do, mister," I announce,
grabbing him by the hand and pulling him into the chair beside me.
"I want to know where you've been these last nine months, what
you've been doing, what the hell you were doing in Vancouver!?
Tell me everything."
"Everything?" he laughs.
"That could take a while."
"Well, we've got a while, don't we?
I mean, you ARE back to stay, aren't you?"
<PLEASE tell me you're back to stay!
I've missed you so much!>
"I sure hope so," he replies with a touch of melancholy.
"Hope so?" I
feel my heart grow heavy at the thought that his return is only temporary.
"You mean, you're going to leave again?"
"Not if I can help it," he smiles impishly, and I'm reminded how
much I've missed his playfulness. "I've
got everything sorted out, wrapped up loose ends that were hanging, and
now I think it's time to leave the past in the past, and concentrate on my
future. I'm finally ready to
settle down."
"Oh, my," I gasp, my heart actually
skipping a beat at the implication of what he has just said.
<Is it possible? Has
he really come back for me? NOW
what do I do?> But
before the conversation can continue any further, Frohike joins us,
carrying William on his hip.
Mulder's eyes nearly pop out of his head.
"My God, is THAT William?" he exclaims, excitedly.
"He's gotten so big."
"Why does everybody say that?" Mel wonders aloud.
"Can I hold him?"
Mulder asks, holding out his arms.
When Mel hesitates uncertainly, Mulder quickly adds, "It's
okay, Frohike. I won't drop
him." With an almost
resigned shrug, Frohike finally relents and hands the boy over to our
friend.
"Hey, little guy," Mulder coos, tickling
William under his chin, causing the child to grin and giggle, just as he
always did whenever Mulder would do that.
While Mulder's not a natural around children, he always had a
wonderful rapport with William. He
continues speaking in a very soothing, gentle voice that I very rarely
hear him use except with his son, "I guess you don't remember me,
huh? But I sure remember you.
I thought about you all the time.
There's so much I missed and I'm sorry about that.
Maybe someday you can understand why I did what I did."
He pulls the child tightly against his body, hugging him close.
"If you only knew how much I love you, kid."
Glancing over at me, he pronounces, "He looks just like you,
Scully."
"But he's got YOUR eyes, Mulder," I
counter.
"You think so?"
"Uh-huh. . .everyone does.
Skinner certainly thinks so. He's
mentioned it many times."
He looks back at William, cocking his head, a sparkle
in his own bright hazel eyes at the notion.
"You know, I think you may be right," he grins.
"Everybody ready to eat?"
Frohike, who has somehow managed to serve up both the casserole and
the salad unseen by us, startles both Mulder and me out of our discussion.
Reaching out, he takes William from a very reluctant Mulder, and
places the child in his highchair. After
an iced-tea toast celebrating Mulder's return and another one for
William's birthday, we all dig into our meals.
Thursday, May 16, 2002
11: 43 A.M.
Scully Residence
I can't take this anymore.
I'm going out of my mind. I
need to keep busy. Try to keep
my thoughts off of Frohike. Wondering
where he is, what he could be doing, if he's hurt or sick, why the hell he
ran off.
Mom always said housework kept her mind busy in times
of anxiety. And speaking of my
mom, I called her as soon as I got home from the Warehouse--well, after I
called around to the ER's a second time.
I told her to be on the lookout for Mel, and if he showed up to
give me a call. As with Milton
and Mykita, it was a long shot, but he likes Mom, and she adores him--he
might seek her out if he was desperate enough for a place to stay.
I tried to be vague about the whole situation, but
she grilled me until I sang like a bird.
To say she was upset is an understatement.
She wanted to go out and join in the search effort, but as the guys
had done with me and Jimmy, I convinced her it would be better to wait and
see if he made an appearance. She
also offered to take William for the day, but I assured her his presence
was the only thing keeping me calm at the moment--well, if not calm, at
least sane.
Where was I? Oh,
yeah, housework. On my way to
the closet, I stop to check on my son.
He's fast asleep in his playpen, his hand clutching a stuffed
Blue's Clues puppy that Frohike had gotten him for Easter.
William loves that show, even though it's a little advanced for him
right now. (Personally, I
think he's just intrigued by the dog.) I stroke his head, choking back the
tears the image in front of me is triggering.
Knowing I'll break down completely if I stay one more second, I
continue on my way to the hall closet, and grab the mop and bucket.
But even as I'm filling the pail with soapy water, my
mind wanders over the last few months, trying to figure out what went
wrong, trying to see something that I may have been missed.
Trying to figure out why Frohike would leave me and William as he
had.
Twelve hours earlier
Wednesday, May 15, 2002
11:43 P.M.
Scully Residence:
Dinner turned out to be an absolute delight.
Mulder kept us all entertained with anecdotes of his cross-country
trip. He's always been a
fantastic storyteller--just ask Skinner.
Some of Mulder's field reports could have made the NY Times top-ten
fiction list.
He told us about the colorful people he met and the
paranormal experiences he witnessed. Fro
and I enjoyed the tales he spun, but William was positively enthralled.
He never took his eyes off Mulder, completely enraptured by his
voice and presence. For his
part, Mulder was just as smitten with the boy.
It was so satisfying to me to finally see them together again.
Mulder loved his son, and had always doted on the child, and I
couldn't help but think that things were going to start getting
interesting now that he was back in town.
After we finished eating, Frohike quickly cleaned off
the table while I retrieved the small birthday cake from the fridge.
Nothing extravagant--as I had told Mulder, the big party would be
Sunday--but just a little something to mark the day.
I lit the single candle in the middle of the cake and we sang
'Happy Birthday' to the delighted child before we all blew out the candle.
I don't know what Mulder and Frohike wished for--as for me, I
couldn't think of a single thing. I
had a great husband, a beautiful little boy, wonderful friends, a job I
loved, a fantastic house that we had closed on a few days earlier and
would be moving into within the next couple of weeks. . .and my best
friend had come back into my life. I
had everything anyone could ask for, and more.
Once we were settled with cups of coffee and pieces
of cake, Mulder announced that he had another gift for us all and dropped
a thin envelope on the table in front of me.
I opened it with some trepidation, almost afraid by what Mulder
could have pulled out of his hat this time, but even I couldn't have
prepared myself for what I found in that envelope.
A bank check for $100,000 made out to me and Frohike.
At first I thought it was a joke and commented to
Mulder that he might want to change banks since this one put too many
zeroes on the check. But he
quickly assured me that it wasn't a joke, simply a share of the profits
from the sale of the three Mulder houses he had inherited after his
parents' deaths. I knew they
held no sentimental value to him, but I was still startled that he sold
them off and even more startled that he was giving me such a large portion
of the money he reaped from them. He
then informed us that he had also set up a trust fund for William, which
he could claim on his 21st birthday. While
he wouldn't reveal the amount, I had the feeling it was more than
generous.
Frohike and I were beyond speechless.
My immediate response was to try to give the check back to Mulder,
but he just shook me off. He
called it a 'belated wedding gift'. "I'm
independently wealthy now," he laughed, "and I want to share it
with the people I love." When
I insisted it was too generous, he just responded seriously, "You
deserve it--you all deserve it--for everything you've given up to stick by
me all these years," and I got the feeling we weren't the only ones
who were benefiting from his sudden windfall.
I truthfully didn't know what to say to that, and
neither did Frohike. Then
again, he hadn't said much all night long--not that he could have gotten a
word in edgewise with me and Mulder yakking away.
After a mumbled, "Thanks, Fox," he went back to helping
William with his little piece of birthday cake.
(Our son tries real hard to use a spoon by himself, but he never
quite seems to get the food to his mouth.)
I was a bit more enthusiastic--maybe a bit too
enthusiastic. As I jumped up
and leaned over to hug Mulder, I lost my footing and fell oh-so-gracefully
into his lap. We both burst
into laughter at my utter clumsiness.
"I don't know how to thank you," I exclaimed, excitedly.
"Do something good with it--maybe use it towards
that house you were telling me about.
Just be happy. That'll
be thanks enough."
"I already am happy," I blubbered in
between the giggles, still clinging to my best friend.
"I'm so glad you're back."
He just wrapped his long arms around me tightly and
sighed, "Me too, Scul--me too."
Our dessert over, we all retired into the living room
with a bottle of wine to continue our reunion--all except for Frohike,
that is. He stayed behind to
do the dishes and cleaning up. I
tried to tell him that stuff could wait until morning, but he just gave me
a small smile and said he was fine. "Besides,
it'll give you some time alone with Mulder," he insisted.
Well, not QUITE alone.
William had made himself right at home in Mulder's lap, totally
spellbound as my ex-partner recited 'Green Eggs and Ham' to him from
memory. I'm telling you, that
guy never stops amazing me. Handing
him a glass of Merlot, I sat down beside him to enjoy the story, too.
By the time he had finished, William was fast asleep.
It was hard to know who looked more peaceful and content--my son or
my friend. As Mulder cuddled
the sleeping child close to him, Frohike finally joined us in the parlor.
Taking one look at us he chuckled softly, "Guess the
excitement was too much for the little guy," and gently removed
William from Mulder's arms. I
asked if he needed help, but he again assured me he was fine and I should
just relax and enjoy my visit with Mulder.
That was two hours ago now, and I haven't seen him
since. I can only think he
must've gone off to bed after putting William down for the night.
It's odd that he didn't at least say 'good night' to Mulder--not to
mention rather rude. I make a
mental note to myself to talk to him about it in the morning.
"More wine?" Mulder asks, interrupting my
thoughts. I smile at my friend
and nod. We broke into the
second bottle about a half-hour ago, or rather *I* broke into it.
Mulder's had only a couple of glasses all night.
He's not big on wine, and besides, he has to drive home later.
Then again, I suppose if worse comes to worse, he can always crash
here on my couch tonight--it's nothing he hasn't done in the past.
My goodness, I can't believe we've been talking
non-stop for nearly five hours. . . just like in the old days.
We've talked about anything, everything, and nothing at all. .
.just like in the old days. In
fact, we've hit every topic under the sun except for one, and with the
evening quickly coming to a close, I can't contain my curiosity any
longer. And so, during one of
the rare lulls in the conversation, I pose the question that's been in the
back of my mind for months. "Mulder,
can I ask you something?"
"Sure. Shoot."
Looking him straight in the eye, I stammer out an embarrassed, "If it
wasn't for Frohike--I mean--if I wasn't married. . .that is. . .was there
any chance you were ever going to come back for me and William?"
He studies me for a moment before replying, "Can
I ask YOU something? If I said
yes, would you leave Frohike and run away with me?
Right now? Tonight?"
His question catches me off guard.
Unprepared as I am, I blurt out the first thing that comes to my
head, "I. . . I. . .no. I
wouldn't. I. . .I couldn't.
I. . .no. I love
Mel." And I think the
proclamation surprises me more it does him.
It feels so good to admit it to Mulder, almost as if it finally
drilled it home. Yes, I love
Frohike. This is not some
phony exercise for appearance's sake, not like on New Year's, when we had
to pretend for our friends. This
time I speak only from the heart.
Hell, I want to scream it from the rooftops.
I know a silly grin is spreading across my face and I have no way
to stop it. I love Frohike,
and he loves me.
Life is good.
Mulder just smiles at me and my reaction.
"Then I guess it's a good thing I didn't come back here to win
your heart since it looks like I'm too late for that."
He pauses to take a sip of his wine before he admits, "You
know, Scul, I had a lot of questions when you told me you had married
Frohike--most of them about your sanity.
But seeing you two together, seeing him with William--he's been a
good influence on you, and he's so good with that child."
The goofy smile gets bigger.
"I know. He
utterly adores that boy. William
couldn't have asked for a better father."
At his raised eyebrow, I quickly backpedal, "Present company
excluded, of course."
"Of course."
He gets a wistful, faraway look in his eyes for a moment, then with
a quick shake of his head, it's gone.
Clasping my free hand in his, he adds a chipper, "I'm so glad
for you, Scul. Both of you.
You guys seem so happy."
All I can do is sigh, "I am, Mulder.
Very happy. It's
amazing what the love of a good man can do for you."
"That's what I hope to find out," he
replies softly, taking another sip from his glass.
<Hmmm. . .that's an odd statement.>
"What do you mean by that?" I ask, curiously.
He lowers his eyes, and I swear he starts to blush.
"Scully. . .can I tell you a secret?"
I'm thrown off by the non sequitur, but quickly
recover, "You know you can."
Squeezing my hand in his, he insists, "You have
to promise me not to tell anyone."
"Promise. Now
spill it."
Lifting his gaze, I see a rare twinkle in his eye.
"I'm in love," he whispers so softly I almost miss it.
Of the many surprising things Mulder has said to me
over the years, that one shoots straight to the top of the list.
Apparently more was going on during his little leave of absence
than just searching for crop circles and selling off real estate.
I suppose I should feel a little jealous--I seem to
get that way when Mulder gets too chummy with women--but for some reason,
I just feel very happy for him. I
can only hope he's found someone as wonderful as I did.
He's watching me, waiting for my response, and I
wonder how long I've been sitting there not saying anything.
He must think I'm angry with him.
Giving him a big smile, I tell him, "I'm so happy for you,
Mulder!" and the look of relief on his face tells me I said the right
thing. Jiggling the hand he's
still holding, I urge, "So, come on--dish the dirt.
I want to know EVERYTHING. We'll
start with her name."
If possible, his voice gets even softer as he
whispers, "Walter."
I blink once, twice, sure that I've misheard what he
said. "Pardon me?" I
ask, cautiously.
A little louder, but not much, he repeats,
"I'm in love with Walter Skinner."
I wait for his patented lame 'Gotcha', but none
appears to be forthcoming, so I help it along, "Good one,
Mulder," I giggle uneasily.
"Scul, I'm serious."
And I can tell by his face and the tone of his voice that he is.
<Okay. No
problem. I can handle
this.> After a moment
or two, I inquire, "When did this happen?" wondering if I really
want to know the answer.
He shrugs his shoulders and mutters, "I'm not
sure. A while ago."
"Oh." So
help me, I have no idea what else to say.
He drains the rest of his wine then places the glass
on the coffee table. Keeping
his eyes on the empty goblet, he confesses, "I've. . .this isn't the
first time I've had these feelings towards men.
There have been others in my past.
But not for a long time now, and never this strong."
"You're gay."
<And you never told me? Damn
you, Mulder!! How dare you
keep me in the dark? I thought
we shared everything?>
At my blunt statement, he looks over at me, seemingly
surprised by my calm, steady tone. I'm
not sure if he was expecting outrage or venom or disgust, but honestly, I
feel none of that. Curiosity,
definitely. And maybe a little
hurt that he never confided in me before.
It's little disconcerting to learn that I didn't know as much about
my friend as I thought I did. I
was under the impression that we didn't keep secrets from each
other--well, okay, so I didn't exactly tell him the truth about me and
Frohike, but that was different. . .wasn't it?
Pulling my hand from mine, he quietly admits,
"Sometimes, but I like women, too."
"Oh." Yup,
I've just turned into a regular chatterbox.
Geez, first he's straight, then he's gay, then he's bi.
All in the span of five minutes.
I'm almost afraid of what he'll come out with next.
I don't have to wait long. Placing
his arm around my shoulder, he begins, "I want you to know I'll
always love you, Dana. And
William will always be my most amazing accomplishment in an otherwise
fucked up life." I try to
argue this point, but he silences me by pressing his index finger gently
against my lips. I get the
hint and shut up, letting him continue.
"I. . . I'm hoping that you'll allow me to be part of his life
now that I'm back. Not as his
dad," he's quick to clarify, "but as a rich eccentric uncle or
something. If you'd rather
not, I understand but. .
."
This time I do cut in, "Of COURSE you'll be part of William's life,
Mulder. We wouldn't have it
any other way."
His mood instantly brightens.
"Really?" I
just nod. "You don't
think Frohike will mind?" he frets.
I laugh at that.
"Are you kidding? Mel
missed you as much as anyone. He's
thrilled you're back."
"You could have fooled me.
He barely spoke to me all night," he practically sulks.
"Oh, like we gave him a chance," I tease,
jabbing him in the ribs with my elbow.
"We haven't stopped cackling since you got here."
He flashes me a big Mulder smile.
"Just like a couple of old biddies at the Bingo parlor,
huh?"
That gets me laughing big time, and to my dismay, I
find I can't stop. By covering
my mouth with my hands I'm able to muffle some of the sound, but it
doesn't stop the guffaws. And
when Mulder joins me, I'm lost. Just
the thought of the two of us, forty years from now, sitting in a church
hall enshrouded with crocheted shawls while arguing about the existence of
a vast Bingo number-calling conspiracy is enough to make me totally lose
it.
Finally, after my sides start hurting, I'm able to
get myself under some sort of control and the laughter eventually tapers
off--I just hope we haven't woken either Mel or William.
Laying my head on Mulder's shoulder, I prompt, "So, what did
he say when you told him?"
"Skinner? Nothing."
At my inquisitive look, he elaborates, "I haven't told him
yet."
"Well, why not?"
"I'm not sure if I should," he confides.
"I mean, it seemed like a good idea when I was alone in some
motel bed outside East Timbukfuck, Idaho, but now. . .I just don't
know."
"What's changed?
You still love him, don't you?"
"Yeah," he sighs dreamily, and I'm startled
once more by his behavior. If
I didn't know better, I'd say he was mooning over Skinner.
One thing's certain--I've NEVER seen Mulder acting like this
before. It's strangely
endearing. Fox Mulder playing
the lovesick puppy--it's a good look for him.
"I feel it even more now that I'm closer to him here in
Washington, but Jesus, Scul! This
is Walter 'I-Eat-Agents-Alive-For-Breakfast' Skinner we're talking about.
The most masculine alpha-male in the F.B.I.
Can you just imagine his reaction when I tell him how I feel about
him?"
What I can't tell him is, yes, I could imagine
Skinner's reaction. . .if Frohike's 'hunch' is right, then Mulder might be
worrying over nothing. "You
should give it a try, Mulder," I tell him, gently.
"Skinner might surprise you."
"By breaking only one of my legs?" he
jests.
"I'm serious, Mulder.
There's depths to Walter that may amaze you."
His eyebrows rise slightly.
"Do you know something I don't, Mrs. Bruckman?"
"Just. . .female intuition," I reply
enigmatically.
He shakes his head in amusement.
"I think you've been hanging around me too long, Scul.
You're getting downright spooky."
We sit there quietly for a few minutes before I
finally turn to him and ask, "Why didn't you tell me you were
gay?"
"Bi," he corrects.
"Whatever. Is
that why we. . .well. . ." I
feel my cheeks flush hotly but I'm determined to finish the question.
"Is that why we never. . .*YOU know*?"
Snaking his right hand up, he tenderly strokes my
burning cheek. "Scul, I
think there were a lot of reasons why we never *YOU know*.
F.B.I. protocol and fraternization taboos aside, I just didn't feel
that way about you."
"Never?" I pout, disappointed to think that
any attraction between us had only been one-sided all along.
He smiles fondly.
"In the beginning, perhaps.
You're a very beautiful woman, Dana.
Very smart. Very sexy.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't crazy about you."
I'll admit, my ego soars when he says that--it's always nice to
hear a guy tell you you're attractive.
As he runs his fingers through my hair affectionately, he
continues, "But in the end, I wanted your partnership more than I
wanted your body. It wasn't
worth the chance that I could lose your friendship just for some
nookie," adding with a leering smirk, "as good as it would have
been."
I think about it for a moment or two, and realize
he's right. It WASN'T just the
rules and regulations that kept us from expanding our relationship beyond
partners and friends. Maybe in
the beginning I had romantic notions about Mulder, but if I was to be
honest, those feelings hadn't manifested themselves in years.
I felt more protective, more sisterly towards him than anything
else, and had for a long time now. Skinner
once called him my soul mate, and perhaps he was correct.
Mulder was everything I wasn't: outrageous, spontaneous,
rebellious, self-confident, and above all else, fearless.
In return, I complemented him with my level-headedness, my
practicality, my common sense, and my conservative nature.
I may be boring, but as he once said, I kept him honest.
Together, we made a great team.
Together, we made a whole person.
"And besides," he goes on with gentle
smile, "now you have Frohike. He'll
be the husband I could never have been.
He'll give you the happy life you deserve."
"And how do you know that, *MR.* Bruckman?" I tease.
"Because he loves only you," he explains.
"There's nothing to distract him from that.
He'll give every moment of his life to making you happy, not
driving you crazy, which is all I would have done."
"So now you're going to inflict that horror on
Skinner instead?"
"Think he can handle it?"
"If anyone can keep you in line, Mulder, it's
Walter," I predict.
It gets quiet between us, and I find myself melting
against him as his fingers continue to stroke my hair. It's
been so long since we've shared moments of togetherness like this--too
long. Finally he breaks the
silence by asking, "What about you, Scully?
Can YOU handle it?"
"That fact that you're bi?
Or the fact that you want to jump Skinner's bones?"
He snorts, "Well, if Walter doesn't kill me once
I tell him--will you be able to deal with the two of us?
Together? If it comes
to that?"
I pause a moment before answering, "Well, my
religion says no, that it's a sin. But
my religion has been wrong in the past."
A little light bulb goes on in the attic.
"That's why you never told me, isn't it?
Because you thought I'd chose my religion over you?"
He nods sadly. "That
was a big part of it. I know
how the Catholic Church feels about homosexuals.
I didn't want to cause you any grief, create any conflict between
you and your faith."
"And is that also why you left?
Because you were afraid I'd condemn you for your feelings?"
Closing his eyes briefly, as if trying to find the right wording,
he slowly begins, "Not really, Scul--I just had to get away.
Being around you and William everyday was clouding my judgment.
I was afraid I'd make the wrong choice for all the right reasons,
if that makes any sense." He
opens his big hazel eyes and stares right down into my soul.
"I really do love you and William, Dana.
You know that. But it
wasn't enough. I wasn't what
either of you needed. I
couldn't have been the man you wanted or needed me to be.
I know my shortcomings and my inadequacies, and every cell in my
body tells me I am not cut out to be a family man.
If we had gotten married, maybe we would have been happy for
awhile, but chances are we would have ended up friends instead of
lovers." And I almost
laugh aloud at the irony, considering that's exactly what I had with
Frohike.
Shaking my head tolerantly, I assure him,
"Mulder, my religion is a part of me, but it isn't the only
part of me. Blind faith is
just as dangerous as no faith at all.
Sometimes it's good to question what you know--you taught me
that." He gives me a big
beaming smile as I continue, "And as for the rest of it, I just want
you happy, Mulder. You and
Skinner both. That's all that
matters to me. The rest will
work itself out. Just give me
some time with this, okay?"
Giving my shoulder another squeeze, he states,
"Scully, you're the best, you know that?"
Curling up against him as he pours me another glass
of Merlot, I tell him, "Yeah, well, don't be upset if you get the
cold shoulder from Mom once she finds out."
"She's prejudiced against gays?" he
exclaims, startled. "Maggie
never struck me as the type."
"She's not, but I think she had an eye on Walter
for herself," I kid, causing him to chuckle softly.
I take another sip of my wine before asking, "So-o-o-o, when
are you going to tell him?"
"Tomorrow, if I can get through security at the
Hoover. Wish me luck?"
I give him a quick, supportive kiss on the cheek.
"All the luck in the world, Mulder.
You're going to need it."
Thursday, May 16, 2002
3: 37 P.M.
Scully Residence
Well, I've cleaned the house, top to bottom.
Vacuuming, dusting, woodwork--you name it.
I take a look around my immaculate apartment before collapsing,
exhausted, on the couch. Without
conscious thought, I find my eyes scanning the room again, this time
landing on my phone--my very quiet phone--and it takes everything in me to
hold back the frustrated scream that wants to erupt from my very core.
It's now been over six hours since my trip to the Warehouse, and
still no word from Mulder or the guys on Frohike's whereabouts.
I continue to stare at the phone, willing it to ring,
daring it not to. After a few
minutes of that futile activity, I snatch the damn receiver off the stand
and dial Gunmen headquarters.
"Did you find him?" a frantic male voice rings through the
earpiece.
<Well, that answers my question.>
"Hi, Jimmy, it's just me," I sigh dejectedly.
"Oh, hi, Agent Scully. I
thought you might be one of the guys."
"I take it there's been no word?"
I already know the answer, but I still have to ask, just to be
sure.
"No, nothing yet," he replies, sadly.
I sigh again. I
seem to be doing that a lot. "I
thought as much, but I figured with the vacuum going, I may have missed
the call," I explain, using my very lame excuse for bothering him.
"I'm sorry, Agent Scully," he apologizes,
forlornly. "I wish there
was something I could do."
"I know, Jimmy, and I appreciate that."
He really is a nice kid, so anxious to please, and he truly admires
the Gunmen--he'd do anything for those guys.
I can sense his frustration level is close to mine, though.
We both want to be out there looking for Mel instead of being
cooped up waiting for results. "But
there's nothing we can do except wait," I tell him.
"Well, there's something else *I* can do,"
he suddenly announces dramatically. "I'll
keep in touch."
"WAIT! JIMMY. . .!"
I shout, but it's too late--all I have is a dial tone in my ear.
Great. Now once the
guys find Mel, they'll have to go track down Jimmy Bond.
With a final sigh, I replace the phone in its cradle.
<Goddamn you, Frohike--where ARE you?>
14 Hours earlier
Thursday, May 16, 2002
1:37 A.M.
FROHIKE:
I watch them through the crack in my bedroom
door--thank God he's finally leaving.
They've been talking for nearly six straight hours since I left
them alone. And not just
talking, but giggling and cuddling and hugging and kissing.
They don't know I've been spying on them, but then again, I doubt
they would have noticed if I was standing in the middle of the living room
taking flash photographs. They
were so engrossed in each other no one else existed.
Especially me.
He leans down to give her a goodnight kiss.
It's only on the cheek, but that doesn't matter.
I can still see the love in his eyes, even from this distance.
I can see the love in hers, too.
They look gorgeous together, wrapped in each other's arms.
It's so obvious they belong together--and there's no way *Mulder*
would ever be mistaken as Dana's father.
Hell, I knew it was just a matter of time before the
great Fox Mulder came back and exercised his ownership claims on Dana and
Billy. I was nothing more than
a substitute until he could return. Shit,
if I was honest with myself, I wasn't even that much.
Just a convenient babysitter. I
knew that, and I've always known this day would come.
The handsome prince would ride into town and sweep the beautiful
princess off her feet and they'd ride off into the sunset to live happily
ever after while the frog returned to his swamp.
I wasn't delusional enough to think my arrangement with Dana was
going to last forever. Okay,
maybe I was delusional, for a while. Maybe
I fooled myself.
Oh, yeah, I had definitely fooled myself.
But no more. I knew
what I had to do.
I hear her moving around the living room, cleaning up
the glasses and snack bowls. I
take that time to start packing. I
don't need much. Some clothes,
underwear, socks, the toiletries I snagged from the bathroom earlier in
anticipation of this. A couple
of sentimental books. My
laptop. The die-cast model car
that Maggie gave me for Christmas. The
framed 8x10 picture of our little family, the one we had posed for with
the coupon Scully gave me for Valentine's Day--that gets wrapped up in a
towel and placed carefully in my knapsack.
By the time I finish, Dana's headed off to bed.
I wait a few more minutes, just to be sure.
I keep myself busy looking for some important papers--our marriage
license, my life-insurance folder, the title for my car, my passport
savings book. I know it's
silly. After the more than
generous gift Mulder gave her--shit, I don't think I've earned $100,000 in
all the years I've been working--she doesn't need my piddling little
savings account. But I'm not
going to do to her what I did to Mykita.
I promised to provide for her and William, and that's what I plan
to do.
I push my door open and check.
All the lights are out, including the one in her bedroom.
I inch my way out of my room, flinging my two backpacks over my
shoulder. I place them quietly
by the front door-- I have one more thing to do before I can leave.
I go into Billy's room and discover him sleeping
soundly, hanging on to that little stuffed puppy I got him a while back.
I place his birthday gift on the nightstand near his crib.
Just a couple of Blue's Clues videos I picked up downtown--he loves
that blue dog. Nothing too big
or expensive. Dana and I had
purchased a few things together for his birthday, but this gift is just
from me.
I turn to go, but find myself being pulled back to
his crib. Leaning down, I
whisper, "I have to go, Billy. I
don't want to, but it's for the best.
For you and for your mommy. But
I want you to know I love you very much, more than I ever thought I could
love anyone." Taking a
moment to angrily brush a tear from my eye, I continue, "I wish I
could be here and watch you grow up. I
know you're going to be a great man. Your
real dad's a great man--it's in your genes.
And he'll make sure you grow up right.
You couldn't ask for better parents.
Be good for them. And
make me proud." After
brushing away another tear, I kiss him one last time on the cheek.
I like to think I see him smile, but it's probably just a trick of
the light coming through the window or something.
As I leave his room, I hesitate for a second, then
follow the hallway to *her* room. Peeking
through the crack in her door, I see her lying in bed sound asleep, the
moonlight washing over her, setting her hair aglow, almost like a reddish
halo. My beautiful angel.
I feel a lump forming in my throat that this is the last image I'll
have of my lovely Dana. "Goodbye,
sweetheart," I mouth, terrified that if I say it out loud I may wake
her. "I'll always love
you." Taking a deep
breath, I silently step away from her door.
One last stop. The
kitchen. I place a note, along
with my bankbook, the important papers, the title and the keys to my car
on the table. It's a classic,
and I keep it in mint condition so I know it's worth a pretty penny.
I figure she can always sell the car if she has to.
I grab a soda and a couple of peaches out of the fridge, then I go
back out to the foyer. Picking
up my knapsacks, I quietly open the front door, and I'm gone.
Thursday, May 16, 2002
8: 13 P.M.
Al's Bar and Grill
YVES:
Ignoring all the stares I receive from the
questionable patrons of Al's Bar and Grill, (the title being a serious
misnomer as there isn't a grill in sight) I make my way towards the back
of the room. I take in the
train wreck of a man sitting in the booth and purr, "My, my--look
what the cat dragged in."
The drunken sot lifts his head off the table and
glares at me with one half-opened eye.
"Oh dear God, PLEASE tell me this is just a bad alcoholic
hallucination," he groans miserably before dropping his head back on
the table.
"You wish," I scoff as I lean my left hip
against his table.
"What the hell do you want, Yves?" he snarls, not even bothering
to look up at me as he speaks.
Crossing my arms over my chest, I sigh wistfully, "I want Orlando
Bloom handcuffed to my bed for a fortnight, but since that's not likely to
happen anytime soon, I'd be happy just to haul your sorry ass back
home."
This time he does look up, his eyes tired and
bloodshot behind his cheap Lens Crafters glasses.
"I don't have a home, Yves, except for this lovely
beer-stained booth. Now, if
you would be so kind as to turn on your pretty little high heel and get
the fuck out of here, I can get back to my drinking in peace."
With that, he picks up his shot glass of rat gut and gulps it down
with barely a grimace.
If he only knew how SO not in the mood I am for this
right now, he wouldn't be testing me.
Lowering my voice, I growl menacingly, "Melvin, I'm slowly
losing my patience, and you don't want to see me when I've lost it
completely. Now, let's
go."
But he behaves as if he hasn't even heard me.
Twirling the glass around his less-than-nimble fingers, he
ruminates, "Have you ever been in love, Yves?
Madly and truly and hopelessly in love. . . only to have your heart
ripped out and stomped on?"
I swear to God I'm going to make Jimmy pay DEARLY for
this the next time our paths cross. When
he asked for my help tracking Toadboy down, I didn't know I'd be expected
to play Agony Aunt. "No,
I'm the one who does all the stomping," I inform him.
He snorts. "Yeah,
that's right. You're a woman.
You broads are good at that."
I uncross my arms and put my hands on my hips.
"Broads!?" I echo, my timbre going up along with an
eyebrow. "I'm going to
forgive you for that, as I'm sure you presently have no control over your
tongue, however. . ."
My thought is interrupted at that moment by some
balding potbellied yahoo in a plaid shirt and stinking of Old Milwaukee,
who uses his last sober braincell to leer,
"Hey, baby, choo wanna dance with me?"
His comment is accompanied by a grab at his crotch, which gets all
his tanked brethren laughing uproariously.
You know, it never fails to amaze me how dumb men
are. Truly.
Like he'd know what to do with me if he ever got me alone.
If I weren't on such an important mission, I'd be halfway tempted
to take him up on his offer and teach him a lesson in good manners and
respecting the fairer sex that he wouldn't soon forget.
As it is, I have more pressing issues to deal with, so I simply
reach out my right hand, grab him by his unshaven flabby neck, and drop
him to his knees with a move I learned watching Jackie Chan movies.
Before he can complain, I shove the pearl-handle snub nose .38 I'm
holding in my left hand into his fat ugly face, and patiently explain,
"I've got PMS and I know how to use this.
Do we understand each other?"
"Yes, yes, I understand perfectly," he
blubbers. Sometimes it's just
WAY too easy.
"Apologize," I command, tightening my hold
on his sweaty flesh.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Please don't kill me!" he's sobbing now, and only my fear that
he might wet himself prompts me to let him go.
Stumbling to his feet, he runs out of the bar.
A simple glare around the room guarantees that I won't be bothered
any more that evening, and I return the gun to my hip holster.
Turning back to Frohike, I inquire, "Now, where
were we?"
But I'm doubtful if he's heard me, or if he's even
aware of the altercation that just took place less than two feet away from
him. Instead, he's busy trying
to pour another shot of Wild Turkey from the bottle on his table.
He's doing a pretty good job of it--only spilling about twice as
much as he manages to get into the glass.
He sits there for a moment, mesmerized by the amber liquid before
he mutters, mournfully, "This is almost the same color as Dana's
hair."
Now I know he's totally wasted.
"I certainly hope not, Melvin, or I'd get another hairdresser
if I were her."
"I had it all, Yves," he continues as if I
haven't even spoken. "A
beautiful wife, a beautiful baby. And
you shoulda seen the house we bought.
We were gonna move in a couple of weeks, in fact.
It was perfect. I had
the perfect life," he stops and sneers, "until HE came
back."
"He?" I ask distractedly, strumming my
fingers on the table, not able to disguise my boredom any longer.
"Mulder."
He practically spits out the name, then throws back his drink,
angrily slamming the tiny shot glass on the table."
"Mulder? You
mean Fox Mulder?" I say, looking for clarification.
"Is there ANOTHER Mulder you know of?"
"Well, actually there IS a pitcher for the
Oakland A's," I elucidate. "He's
got a wicked curveball."
He rolls his eyes.
"No, you were right the first time.
Fox is back in town."
I slide into the booth opposite him, hoping that five-year old Bud Lite
won't ruin my leather pants. "What
does Mulder have to do with this?"
"Didn't you know?
He's Billy's real father. And
Scully's true love." He
shakes his head ruefully, "I can't believe I lost everything.
In one minute. Poof."
"Melvin, what are you talking about?" I
demand, quite tired of this nonsense.
"Mulder's back, so now Scully can be with the man she really
loves," he proclaims, dejectedly.
For a moment I'm struck speechless--this isn't quite
what I expected to hear--but I quickly cover it up and ask, "She told
you this?"
He shrugs his shoulders and mumbles, "She didn't have to.
I just know, okay?" Looking
right at me he adds bitterly, "Why would she want the frog when she
can have the prince?"
Leaning back into the booth, I remark, "Well, I
will admit that I don't quite understand the appeal myself, but you must
do SOMETHING for her, otherwise she wouldn't have married you in the first
place."
"She only married me to have a father for William."
At that point, he attempts to pour himself another shot, but before
he can, I grab the bottle from him with one hand, the glass with the
other. "HEY!" he
protests, "give those back!"
"Not until you tell me what the hell is going on here, Mel," I
command, "because I don't believe what you're telling me. Not
for one minute." According
to Jimmy, Dana Scully was at her wit's end over Frohike's disappearance.
Why was he under the assumption she didn't give a damn about him
anymore? And how the hell did
Fox Mulder fit into all this?
"It's true. We haven't
even. . .I mean. . .we've never. . ."
He pauses in his stammering before finally confessing, "It's a
marriage of convenience, that's all."
With a mirthless laugh, he grimaces, "My God, I MUST be drunk
if I just admitted that to you."
"And you think this is news to me?"
I chuckle at his startled look.
"Really, Melvin. You
boys have GOT to learn how to sweep for bugs more efficiently.
I've known about you and Dana since you told Byers back in
November, right before you moved out of the Warehouse."
"But. . .but at the New Year's party. . .?"
he sputters. "You. .
.when Dana told you off. . ."
"Yes, I must admit that really puzzled me at the
time. But I just figured you
two had finally let nature take its course and. . .well. . .let's just say
the picture of you naked put me off my feed for a week."
"Very funny, Yves," he grouses.
"I did lose two pounds, so it wasn't a total
disaster," I shoot back.
Dropping his head into his hands, he groans,
"No, I can assure you nature never paid a visit to our abode.
We're nothing but friends, just as we've always been."
"Friends?" I repeat, disbelievingly.
"Are you really that naïve?"
I shake my head in amusement. "Oh,
Melvin, have you got a lot to learn about women."
"No thank you.
I've been trying for half a century now.
I give up. Don't wanna
know a freaking thing about them."
"Too bad. You're
going to get a lesson whether you want one or not."
Folding my arms on the table, I lean forward until I'm practically
in his face, then announce, "For your information, Dana is frantic
right now. She has the Gunmen
AND Mulder out looking for you, and she's one step away from calling in
reinforcements at the F.B.I. She's
desperate for you to come home. Now
does that sound like someone who's getting ready to kick you out?"
"But. . ."
I swiftly cut him off, "No buts, Melvin.
She loves you, and she wants you back.
She thinks she did something wrong, something to drive you
away."
"She loves me?" he repeats, in disbelief.
"Who told you that?"
"Jimmy. Apparently
she made quite a ruckus this morning at Headquarters looking for
you."
"But. . .I left so she could be with the man of
her dreams," he mutters, miserably.
Leaning back again in the booth, I exhale sharply and propose,
"Did you ever stop to think that maybe, as odd as it seems, YOU could
be the man of her dreams?"
Tired, wary eyes study me for a moment before he
issues a soft, unbelieving, "How. . .?"
"People change, Frohike. Their
feelings change, too. Your
relationship may have started out as simple friendship, but it's obviously
grown since then."
"But. . .Mulder. . .," he utters, clinging to his old argument.
"She didn't marry Mulder," I remind him.
"She married you."
"But that's because she COULDN'T marry
Mulder," he argues. "He
left town."
"And you stayed," I quickly point out.
"You were there when she needed you, Melvin.
You came to her when she had nowhere else to turn.
You've been by her side, helping her, keeping her company, bringing
her happiness. You've been a
wonderful companion for her and an excellent father to her child.
How can you think she would just throw you over for Mulder
now?"
He thinks for a minute, then two.
"Because. . ." he begins, then just as quickly goes
quiet. "Because. .
." he tries again, and once more falls silent.
"Because. . .you don't have an answer, do you,
Frohike?" I declare, triumphantly.
"Because you know I'm right.
Because you let your insecurity and fear of commitment get in the
way of the best thing that's ever happened to you."
"Please, Yves, the last thing I need right now
is rehashed Oprah, okay?" he jeers, disgustedly.
"Actually,
it was Star Jones, but we won't go into that.
The fact is, the greatest, most enduring loves are the ones that
grow from friendship."
"Exactly my point," he contends.
"Mulder and Scully have been friends for nearly a decade now.
They have a baby together. They
BELONG together. And he'll be
able to provide for her better than I ever could."
He takes a deep breath and exhales, "My God, the guy's loaded.
His bank account has more zeroes than in Bush's cabinet."
"So now's she's a gold digger?
I don't think you give Dana much credit."
"It's not that--it's just. . ."
"It's just you've decided to run away like a coward with your
tail between your legs? You're
just going to let Mulder step in and take over your territory?"
I tut-tut in my most condescending manner, "I expected more
from you, Melvin. If you love
Dana half as much as you claim to, you'd fight to the death for her."
"Look at me, Yves," he implores.
"Look at Mulder. The
war was won before it began."
"There's more to a man besides his looks."
I pause, not able to stop the smirk I know is crossing my face,
"Although in your case, I can see your point."
"Thanks, Yves," he snarls.
"I can always rely on you to kick me when I'm down."
"Just doing my job, Melvin," I reply,
smugly.
He scowls. "I
really hate that name."
"I know, but it fits you so well."
"Why are you so anxious to get me to stay
anyway?" he asks, curiously. "I
woulda thought you'd be thrilled to get rid of me."
"Nonsense. I enjoy
having you around, Frohike. Who
else would I have to torture?"
"Langly?" he volunteers.
I just laugh at that. "He's
too easy a mark. I prefer a
challenge. And YOU, my dear
boy, are as challenging at they come."
"I'm glad I keep you entertained," he
grumbles.
"Like you wouldn't believe," I coo.
"And as for why I'm trying to keep your marriage together, I'm
doing it for Dana and the child. She's
a good woman--she doesn't deserve what you're putting her through right
now."
"Yves, you haven't been listening to me,"
he exclaims, exasperated. "I'm
doing this FOR Dana, for her happiness.
With me gone, she can marry the man she loves."
No question about it--Melvin Frohike is going to be the death of me, of
that I'm sure. I give him my
best stare-down as I divulge, "I've got news for you, Melvin.
I saw that kiss you two shared at that party, remember?
And I'm here to tell you that I don't care what kind of act you two
were pulling New Year's Eve, that kiss was not part of it.
There is no way Dana was faking that.
She loves you, deeply, not as a friend or a companion or a
substitute father for her child. I
don't know why you can't see that, or won't see it, but it's the
truth."
His eyes get as big as saucers behind his glasses.
"But. . ." he starts, until I quickly silence him.
"No more buts, Frohike," I huff.
"I'm sick of this game."
Sensing the time was right to drag out the heavy artillery, I dig
an envelope out of my jacket pocket.
I remove the photos it contains and slap them on the table in front
of him. "What kind of man
can just walk away from this?" I taunt.
I watch as he picks up the photos one by one, staring at them in stunned
disbelief. They're copies of
the pictures Maggie Scully took at the New Year's party, pictures showing
Frohike and Scully laughing and dancing and just basking in each other's
company. There's even a
picture of 'The Kiss'.
But it's the last photo that catches his
attention--the one she took of William, dressed in his little Star Trek
uniform, sleeping on Langly's stomach.
Running his stubby thumb over the face of his precious child, tears
start to roll down his cheeks. "Damn
you, Yves," he curses, his voice husky with raw emotion, as he
clutches the photo in his hand. "Why'd
you have to show me this?"
"I fight dirty. You
should know that about me by now."
I scoop up the pictures and place them back in the envelope, then
hand it to him.
"Thanks," he sniffles, wiping the tears
away with the back of his black-gloved hand.
"You're quite welcome."
With that, I stand up and say to him in my most compassionate voice
(yes, I am capable of it when I want to), "Come on, I'll take you
home."
Sitting there, staring at his packet of photos, he
sighs dejectedly, "How can I go home and face Dana after what I've
done? After I've hurt her so
much?"
"A real man owns up to his mistakes.
And that's all this was, Frohike--a mistake, made with the best of
intentions. You'll apologize.
She'll forgive you. And
you'll both be okay."
He's actually trembling he's so nervous, and for not the first time, my
heart goes out to him. With
all of his faults, he really is a good person.
After all, it's not every man who would simply give up the family
he loves more than anything just because he thinks his wife might be
happier with someone else. It's
quite sweet in its own twisted way. "I'm
scared, Yves," he whispers, as more tears roll down his face.
"I don't want to lose her.
She's my life."
"And she's waiting for you."
Holding out my hand, I ask gently, "Are you ready to go,
Mel?"
He slowly nods once as he reaches into his pants
pocket and throws some bills on the table to cover his binge.
Then, after retrieving his knapsacks from underneath the table, he
attempts to stand up on whiskey-soaked legs.
He's less than successful and falls back into the booth.
Heaving an annoyed sigh, I grasp him by the arm, ease him up, and
help escort him out of the charming establishment.
With some difficulty, I finally get him seated in the passenger
side of my car, hoping like hell that he won't ralph all over the
upholstery. As I fire up the
engine, I can't help smiling to myself.
<Yves, old girl, you did it again!>
Thursday, May 16, 2002
10: 42 P.M.
Scully Residence
SCULLY
*Knock, Knock*
The knocking at the front door startles me out of a
very restless nap. I'm not
even sure when I fell asleep, but I'm curled up on the couch and slightly
groggy, so I must've dropped off sometime during the last hour or so.
Another knock brings me fully awake and I stumble to the door, not
even caring that all I'm wearing is a nightshirt, flannel boxers, and a
pair of fuzzy socks. Only one
thought is running through my head in those brief seconds: Please God, let
it be Frohike.
Well, I guess God's not taking requests today because
as I peer through the peephole, I'm surprised by who is standing in the
hallway--it sure as hell is not Frohike.
I unlock the door and open it cautiously.
"Yves? What are
you doing here?"
She smiles that all-knowing, condescending smirk that
I remember so well from the New Year's party and purrs, "I found a
stray pet and I thought you might want him."
With that, she reaches out with her left hand and yanks Frohike
towards her into the doorframe. "Or
do you want me to call the pound instead?"
I'm too stunned to respond to her insults.
All day long I've been wondering what I would do when--if--WHEN Mel
walked through the door. 'Kiss
him' or 'kill him' were the two at the top of my list.
But when I see his face, all I can do is charge him and crush him
in a huge bear hug, figuring he strangulation can wait for later.
"Oh, God, Frohike!" I sob in relief.
"Are you okay? Where
have you been? I've been so
worried about. . ."
I never get to finish. He
breaks out of my grasp and groans, "Dana. . .gonna be sick!"
Pushing past me, he runs for the bathroom; moments later, the
sounds of someone kissing the porcelain god can be heard.
Even Yves looks away, seemingly embarrassed by the display.
The two of us stand there for a few moments, not
saying anything, which only amplifies the sounds Frohike is making.
Wherever she found him, it's obvious he spent some time drowning
his sorrows. I haven't seen
him so drunk since we thought Mulder was dead.
Well, the FIRST time we thought he was dead.
The silence stretches on between Yves and myself, and
since it's apparent she's not going to volunteer any information, I
finally ask, "Where did you find him?"
She looks up at me, most of her smug attitude gone.
"In a little bar outside Philadelphia," she responds,
softly.
"Philadelphia?" I repeat.
"What was he doing there?
How you'd find him?"
"I don't know what he was doing there," she
replies, then adds with some of her former bravado, "as for how I
found him. . .I have my ways."
"I. . .I don't understand," I stammer.
"Why were you out looking for Frohike, anyway?"
"Jimmy called me in," she explains.
"He said the boys were in over their heads--again--and they
needed my unique expertise." The
arrogant smirk and tone had returned full force.
"Once again, he was right.
And they call HIM the stupid one."
It was all too much for me to take.
After the long hours of waiting, not being able to eat, the
worrying, the helplessness. . .to my dismay, I find myself starting to
tremble. "I. . .I don't
know what to do," I whisper, even more disturbed to hear the shaking
in my voice.
She places a comforting hand on my shoulder and says,
"It's just the adrenaline rush, Dana.
It'll pass."
"I know that!" I snap back.
"I AM a doctor, you know!"
Her hand flies off my shoulder and I'm instantly ashamed at my
behavior. "I'm sorry,
Yves," I quickly apologize, "I'm just not myself right
now."
"Completely understandable," she says,
unfazed by my over-reaction. "You've
been through an emotional wringer today."
"You don't know the half of it," I chuckle
nervously. "I'm still not
sure whether to hug him or slug him."
"Do both--he deserves it."
That gets a real laugh from me.
"I may just do that, especially once I find out why he ran
away." I pause and look
the young woman in the eye before asking hopefully, "He didn't happen
to tell you why, by any chance?"
She hesitates for a moment, and even though I barely
know her, I realize that's not something she usually does.
Yves is not a person who acknowledges insecurity or uncertainty.
Clearing her throat she finally answers, "Yes, he did."
"And. . .?"
"And. . .I think it would be better if he told
you himself," she finishes, not unkindly.
"Just know that he did it because he loves you."
Her words throw me for a loop.
What can she possibly mean by that statement? "What?"
"He was trying to make you happy," she
clarifies.
Okay. Now
I'm thoroughly confused. "He
was trying to make me happy--by ditching me?" I repeat incredulously.
Leaning her left shoulder against the doorframe, she
sighs, "Dana, he loves you more than you could ever know.
Your happiness is paramount to him--even at the expense of his own
happiness. So, just be easy on
him." Her mouth curls
into an evil grin, "But not TOO easy."
We come to an awkward silent pause in the
conversation as I try to process everything she's revealed.
I still may not know what has been going on in my husband's head
for the last 24 hours, but I do know one thing--we're going to have a
talk. A LONG talk.
As these thoughts are going through my mind, Yves
pipes up with, "Well, if everything is settled here, I'm going to
head out."
"Don't you want to come in for a cup of coffee
or something?" I offer.
She gives me a real smile, not one of her cocky
smart-ass ones, and I'm struck by how pretty she is without the arrogant
facade. "No, thank you.
I really have to run. I'm
late for a business meeting. It
was kind of you to offer, though."
Something tells me I don't even want to know what kind of business
meeting is held at 11:00 P.M. on a Thursday night.
"I don't know how to thank you, Yves.
I wish there was some way to show you my gratitude for what you've
done."
That little comment draws a raised eyebrow and a
hearty laugh from the young lady. "You
think I did this for YOU? Please!
I'm not that altruistic, Agent Scully.
I did it for myself."
I blink in confusion.
"I. . .I don't quite follow you."
"Melvin and I have been friendly rivals for many
years now," she explains. "I'd
miss the little twerp terribly if he went away."
And with that she tosses her head, sending her long cascading raven
tresses over her shoulder, turns on her heel, and sashays down the
corridor like Jayne Mansfield in 'The Girl Can't Help It', leaving me to
wonder how the hell she can walk like that without breaking anything.
Shaking my head to clear away the surrealness of the
last five minutes, I make my way over to the now silent bathroom.
Mel has left the door partly open in his earlier haste, and with a
single knock, I push my way inside.
I find him still kneeling in front of the toilet,
groaning pitifully. It seems
like the worst is behind him, but he's still quite pale and sweaty.
I want to be angry. I
want to throttle him. But all
I feel inside is compassion and concern.
And confusion. And
relief. So much relief.
Stepping over to the linen closet, I take down a facecloth and run
it under cold water in the sink. Squatting
down next to Mel, I wrap my right arm around his waist; with my left hand,
I wipe the cool wet cloth over his face.
It's quiet between us for a minute or two before he
finally speaks up. "Dana.
. .?"
"Yes?"
"I'd like to be alone for a little while,"
he mutters miserably.
A dismissal. I
know one when I hear one. I
understand his embarrassment at my seeing him like this, but I still fell
like I've been slapped in the face. Handing
him the cloth, I say simply, "You know where to find me when you're
ready." With a chaste
kiss to the cheek, I stand up and walk out of the bathroom, closing the
door behind me.
I wander back into the living room and plop myself
down on the couch, grabbing my phone at the same time.
First call I make is to Mom to let her know Mel's safe and back
home. She's quite relieved, of
course, and just a TAD bent out of shape.
She tells me to notify Mel that she wants to have a 'talk' with him
Sunday at the party. I have a
feeling she's going to give him a piece of her mind, and I almost pity
him.
Almost.
I'm about to call Mulder when I hear Mel gargling in
the next room; soon after that the shower goes on.
Not wanting him to be stuck without any clean clothes, I go over to
his backpacks, which he dropped by the front door.
Digging around in one of them, I find a pair of cotton pajamas for
him to change into. I also
find the towel-wrapped framed picture of the three of us we had posed for
back in February. I hadn't
noticed it missing when I inspected his room earlier.
I feel a sob catch in my throat as Yves words come back to me:
"He did it because he loves you."
Whatever motives he had for leaving, something tells
me that he was acting against his will.
For some reason, he felt he had to leave, but he truly didn't want
to. He may have left us, but
we weren't leaving him. With
just two bags of possessions to his name, he had found space for that
picture, and took special care of it to ensure it wouldn't be damaged.
In that way, we would always be with him, no matter where he went.
I find myself more determined now to get to the bottom of this
incident, and learn just why Frohike felt he had to abandon us.
The shower is still going, and I notice I'm still
holding his fresh clothes. I
walk over to the bathroom and crack the door open just enough to leave
them on the small stepstool near the hamper.
My good deed accomplished, I make myself comfortable
once more on the couch and dial up Mulder's cellphone.
"Mulder."
"Hey, it's me."
"Scully? Is he
home?"
"Yeah. Yves just brought
him in."
"Yves?"
"Yves. . .Harlow, I think is her last name.
She's a friend of the Gunmen."
"Long dark hair, killer lips, funky accent,
legs you'd love to see wrapped around your neck?"
"I don't know about THAT.
You know her?
"Uh-huh. Met her once
about a year ago. She was
hanging out at the Warehouse with the guys."
"And you remembered her from one meeting?"
"Wouldn't YOU?"
"You've got a point there."
"So, how'd she find him?"
"She didn't say."
"Why'd he leave?"
"I don't know. I haven't
had a chance to talk to him yet."
"Do the others know yet?"
"No, I just got off the phone with Mom.
Can you give Jimmy a call and let him know Mel's safe?"
"Sure, no problem."
"And thank him for me.
He's the one who put Yves on Frohike's trail in the first
place."
"You got it."
"Mulder, I'm real sorry your plans got ruined
for today."
"That's okay--I'll get him tomorrow."
"So you're still going to go through with it?"
"Of course. Hey, I
have to know if there's anything to your 'female intuition'.
Wish me luck?"
"You know I do. Oh, and
Mulder?"
"Yeah?"
"You better invite me to the wedding."
"Who do you think is gonna be my best
man?"
I've just hung up the phone, and am still giggling
over Mulder's final statement when Frohike strolls barefoot into the
living room, wearing the clean pajamas I left out for him.
He's not wearing his glasses and he looks so naked without them.
More vulnerable. I give
him a little smile and inquire gently, "Feeling better?"
"No, but I smell better," he replies,
candidly. Pulling at his
pajama top, he murmurs, "Thanks."
"You're welcome."
An awkward pause follows before he says, "I'm,
ahhhh, I'm sorry about. . .what I said to you in the bathroom.
I didn't mean it to sound so testy.
I just. . .I hated you seeing that."
"I know, Mel.
It's okay. Really."
He gestures to the couch where I'm sitting.
"May I?"
I don't answer him; I simply move down a little ways
to make some room for him and pat the sofa cushion next to me invitingly.
After a moment, he steps forward and takes up my unspoken offer,
sitting rigidly beside me.
I reach out my right hand towards him and he shirks
away, relaxing when all I do is brush some stray wet strands of hair out
of his face. He gives me a
small sheepish smile, tentatively asking, "Where's Yves?"
"She had a business meeting."
"I'm sure she did," he faintly chuckles
before he grows silent, and starts wringing his hands nervously.
Finally he lifts his eyes to me and whispers a heartfelt, "I'm
sorry, Dana. I never meant to
hurt you."
He looks so sad and remorseful and miserable that I
can't help my heart from going out to him.
My hand gently caresses down his very stubbly cheek as I assure
him, "It's okay, Mel. I'm
just glad you're home."
"You are?" he asks, his voice soft and
uncertain.
"Of course!
Why wouldn't I be?" When
he doesn't answer me, I gently prod, "Mel, why did you do it?
Why did you leave me?"
He hesitates, still wringing his hands, before
confessing, "I. . .I did it so you could be with Mulder."
Surely I've misheard what he just said.
"Pardon me?"
Taking a deep breath and exhaling it sharply, he
repeats, "I left so that you'd be able to marry Mulder.
I thought it's what you wanted."
MULDER?! He
left because of Mulder?! I
should have known. Everything
in my life seems to lead back to Mulder.
But suddenly everything makes sense.
The aloof way he acted last night.
His seemingly indifferent attitude to Mulder's presence.
His almost selfish behavior when it came to William.
My God, he was jealous of Mulder!
Why hadn't I seen that? Some
investigator *I* am!
Knowing my eyebrow is residing somewhere past my
hairline, I exclaim in disbelief, "Mel, whatever made you think I
wanted that?"
"I heard him tell you he was ready to settle
down. But as long as I was
around you weren't free to be with him.
If I wasn't here anymore then you could," he explains
logically.
"Oh, Frohike. . ." I sigh, shaking my head
in bemusement, as I feel my anger and anxiety starting to drain away at
his admission. This man can be
so exasperating! "Didn't
I tell you before I hate to be ditched, no matter what the reasons are?
Whatever am I going to do with you?"
"You love him," he insists, rather agitated.
"I know you do. I
saw you hugging him, kissing him."
"You were spying on me, Mel?" I ask,
sharply.
At least he has the decency to appear repentant.
"I didn't mean to and you're avoiding the subject."
He's right. I
am avoiding the issue, because I'm afraid of hurting him by telling him
the truth. But the truth is
what's needed if we're going to work this through.
So, taking his worrying hands in mine, I open myself up to him.
"Yes, you're right--I do love him.
Very much. We've been
to heaven and hell together. At
times he's been like a big brother, other times, like my father, and
sometimes, like a son. Mulder
is very special to me, and he always will be.
He's my best friend, maybe even my soul mate.
But he could never be my husband, or my lover."
His brow furrows in confusion.
"But. . .what about William?"
The change of topic throws me momentarily.
"What about him?"
Cheeks flushing, he sputters, "If you and Mulder aren't. . .I
mean, if you've never been. . .intimate. . .are we talking the Second
Coming here?"
I really wasn't expecting that question--it's
something that has never come up before.
Since everyone knows I'm sterile due to my abduction, I assumed
they would just figure out William was conceived artificially.
Apparently, I was wrong to assume.
"No, it wasn't a miracle, except of science."
At his blank look, I explain, "Invitro fertilization, Mel.
When I discovered the ova Mulder found were still viable, I
acknowledged it may be my last chance to have a child, and he agreed to
help me." I shake my head
and laugh at some of the colorful memories.
"Believe me, if I ever doubted his friendship before, I
discovered what a REAL friend was those agonizing months of trying to get
pregnant."
"You mean you guys never. . .?" his
question trails off, and he turns an even deeper shade of red.
"No, we never did," I tell him with a small
smile. "We're friends.
Only friends."
My answer clearly stumps him, but not for long.
"Even if Mulder was just a donor, he's still Billy's father.
And Billy deserves to be with his father," he pronounces
resolutely.
"He IS with his father," I correct him,
pulling one of my hands out of his grasp and running it down his cheek.
"The best father in the world.
And I'm sure William would be the first to agree with me--if he
could talk, that is."
He lowers his eyes, chuckling an embarrassed,
"Oh, Dana. . ."
But I'm not done with him yet.
"And for the record, Mel, I'm already with the man I love.
And that's just what I told Mulder last night."
The expression in those naked, defenseless eyes is
one of sheer disbelief. "You
did?"
"Uh-huh. . .right before he told me he came back
for Skinner," I reveal with a huge grin.
He just sits there staring at me, trying to process
what I've just told him. After
a moment he gives up and simply exclaims, "WHAT?!"
"Mulder IS ready to settle down. . .with
Walter."
"Dana, I'm seriously toasted over here,
remember? Don't mess with my
head like this," he scolds.
"I'm not messing with you, Mel," I state as
I wrap my arm around his shoulder. "Apparently
Mulder's been conflicted by his feelings for both me and Skinner for years
now, but after the past few months of soul searching, he's made his choice
and he's ready to tell Walter just how he feels."
"You mean, he never intended to come back for
you and William?" he demands, indignantly.
I shake my head 'no'.
"He loves me, too, but not in a romantic way.
So you see, it works out all the way around."
"Are you saying I almost lost you for
nothing?" and he turns so green I'm afraid he's going to be sick
again all over the couch.
"Mel, you can't get rid of me that easily,"
I laugh, rushing to comfort him. "I
would have just kept looking until I found you."
Caressing his cheek once more, I vow, "I love you,
remember?"
"So, you're not mad?" he asks, hopefully.
"Oh, no, I'm mad," I assure him.
"VERY mad. More
angry than you could possibly know. I
went through hell today, not knowing where you were, if you were okay or
not. You scared me to
death." I'm careful to
keep my voice calm but firm. It's
not as easy as it sounds.
"Then why are you being so nice to me?" he
wants to know.
"You mean, why aren't I flinging plates at
you?" I chuckle, remembering his descriptions of his 'disagreements'
with Mykita.
He gives his own snort of laughter.
"Yeah, something like that."
Taking his hand in mine once more, I begin relating a
story from my past. "When
I was 16, I went out with some friends.
I didn't get home until three in the morning, even after I had
promised Mom I'd be home at midnight.
She was waiting for me by the front door as I tried to sneak in,
and man, did she let me have it! She
reprimanded me so loud she woke up the whole house.
Then, after she had reduced me to tears, she hugged me so hard I
couldn't breath. She was just
so worried and so upset, the first impulse she had was to get it all out,
which is what she did. Once
all the anxiety and anger was gone, she felt only relief that I was okay.
And that's what I feel right now--I'm just relieved you're
home."
I pause for a moment and smile before continuing.
"Believe me, that was my first impulse, too.
I wanted to just scream and take out all my frustration on you.
I was so scared--all those times Mulder ran off on me, all the
close calls we had, all the times I almost lost him.
I couldn't bear to lose you, Mel."
"Why didn't you?" he wonders in a shaky
voice, his eyes filling with tears.
"Well, it's late, and I didn't want to wake the
neighbors," I joke. "And
besides, I didn't want to ruin Mom's fun."
"Mom?" he asks, warily.
I nod. "Oh,
yeah, Mel. She wants to have a
word with you. And I'm sure
Mulder does, too. After all,
he had planned to talk to Skinner today, so you wrecked that for
him."
"I did?"
He was turning green again.
"Yes, you did.
And let's not forget the guys."
"The guys?"
I don't think I've ever seen that color green before.
"Uh-huh. Jimmy
is itching to give you a good dressing-down.
And Byers is certain to have a few choice words."
I feel an evil smirk crossing my face as I add,
"I think we'll save Langly for last.
He's bound to have the most to say."
"Oh, shit," he groans, piteously.
"Oh, shit is right.
So, with that many people lined up to ream you a new asshole, I
think I can be charitable for tonight and be easy on you."
My smirk grows wider as I remember Yves' suggestion, "But not
TOO easy."
He chuckles mirthlessly.
"I'm screwed, aren't I?"
"Thoroughly and completely," I quip.
Hanging his head in misery, he mutters, "I don't
even know why you guys want me to stick around anyway.
All I ever manage to do is hurt you, even when I don't mean
to." He heaves a deep,
dejected sigh. "I just
can't seem to do anything right."
"But you try your best, Mel," I argue,
giving his hand a squeeze, "and always with the best intentions.
Sometimes I think you try TOO hard--and that's when you seem to get
into trouble."
"I know, and I'm sorry," he apologizes once
more. "I. . .I don't
deserve you, Dana." Dropping
his head onto my shoulder, he sighs again, "I. . .I love you too, you
know."
After learning everything he went through over the
last couple of days for me, I'd say that's a serious understatement.
"I know," I whisper, giving him a loving kiss on the
cheek. "You've had a hard
day--you should get some sleep. We'll
talk more in the morning."
"Yeah, that sounds good," he agrees, with a
yawn. "Just gotta do
something first." With
that, he gets up, wobbles, but holds his ground, then heads off towards
William's room. I smile to
myself--I had been wondering how long it would take for him to make his
way over to the boy. Deciding
he'd need a few minutes alone with his son, I go around the apartment,
locking down for the night. But
even after I'm done my task, he still hasn't emerged from the nursery, so
I make my way over to see what's up.
Peering in the door, I see him standing by the crib,
simply running his fingers, feather-light, up and down William's back and
gently over his head. I must
make some kind of sound because he whispers, "I didn't want to wake
him up."
Dropping my voice in volume, I whisper back,
"I'm sure he wouldn't mind," then add a teasing, "Sometimes
I think you love him more than you love me."
I get a soft chuckle out of him. "Let's just say
it's a tie."
Stepping into the room behind him, I slip my arms
around Mel's waist and place my head on his shoulder.
"He loved the Blue's Clues videos you got him."
"Yeah?"
"Uh-huh. I
played them this afternoon to keep him busy.
The whole time they were playing, he kept saying, 'Blue, Blue', and
clapping his hands. After they
were done, he wanted to watch them again.
I think we're going to get a lot of use out of them."
Hugging him closer to me, I confide, "He was asking for you at
dinner, you know."
Mel turns in my arms, and even in the dimness of the
Mickey Mouse nightlight, I can see wetness in his eyes.
"Really?" he asks, full of wonder and hope.
"Uh-huh. He'd
say 'Dad' and point at your chair then give me a puzzled look.
He seemed confused you weren't there."
Removing my right hand from his waist, I use it to brush some stray
wisps of hair behind his ear. "I
think he missed you."
"I missed him, too," he chokes out, his
voice raspy with unshed tears.
"I'm just glad I didn't have to tell him 'Dad'
wasn't coming back." Frohike
ducks his head away from me, but I fix that by placing my finger under his
chin, forcing him to look back at me.
I give him a warm smile, "I'm so happy you're home, Mel,"
and I pull him in for a kiss.
It takes a moment, but soon I feel his arms encircle
my waist and pull me close against him, the kiss deepening as the seconds
pass. I can still taste the
Scope on his breath as I slip my tongue past his lips and curl it around
his own. I want to let him
know how much I love him, how much I need him, how much he means to me.
My words might not convince him, but maybe my kiss will.
I really hope it will.
As we pull apart, there's a glow in his eyes that
wasn't there before, and I get the feeling my kiss might have finally
gotten through to him. I give
him a big smile, even as I'm tugging on his sleeve.
"C'mon, Mel--let's get to bed."
With a returning smile and a nod, he follows me out of the nursery,
leaving the door open so we can hear William if he needs us.
When we get to the living room, he starts to go his
own way, but I don't let go of his sleeve, and pull him instead towards my
bedroom. "Ah, Dana, where
are we going?" he asks, uncertainly.
"You're sleeping with me tonight," I inform
him as I push him towards my bed. "I'm
not letting you out of my sight."
He laughs nervously, "You're kidding,
right?"
Instead of answering, I give him a little shove until
he's sitting on the edge of the mattress.
"No, I'm not. And
if you don't behave, I may just have to break out the handcuffs."
"And that's supposed to be a deterrent?" he
jokes.
"Just get in the bed," I command as I pull
off my socks and slip in on the other side.
"I must be dreaming," he murmurs as he
scrambles to get under the covers. Once
he's settled in, I spoon up against him, throwing my arm around his waist.
"Now if you try to ditch me tonight, I'll know all about
it," I explain, "and I promise to make you sorry you were ever
born."
He chuckles at that.
"You don't have to worry--I'm not planning on going
anyplace."
"Good," I mutter, snuggling up closer to
him, and instantly wondering if I've made a big mistake with my impulsive
suggestion. I mean, I'm laying
in bed with Melvin Frohike, a man who, beyond all measure of logic, has
become the star in many of my late-night fantasies.
A year ago, I would have laughed at someone if they even suggested
this could happen, but a year ago, I was a single mom with no one to share
my life with. Then, out of
nowhere, Mel stepped in and turned my whole world upside down.
I can smell him under the fragrance of my Victoria's
Secrets pear shower gel that he used, probably by mistake in his
inebriated confusion. Still,
even with the strong fruity bouquet, I can recognize his familiar
masculine scent. It's invading
my senses, enveloping me. Combined
with the feel of him pressed against me, I find my mind starting to drift
into some erotic, forbidden territory.
I wish I could just roll him flat on his back, strip those cotton
jammies off him, and have him ravish me until dawn.
But he's in no condition for any kind of roll in the
sheets--not tonight, at least. And
besides, there's that damnable contract we agreed to which prevents any
such activity. As my leg
drapes over his, bringing our bodies into even closer contact, I vow to
myself to discuss that 'no-sex' provision with him sometime soon. . .my
shower massager has been putting in too much overtime lately.
A soft "Dana?" breaks into my lustful
musings.
"Hmmm?" I purr, melting against his warm, solid body.
He clasps my hand in his and gently brings it up to his lips.
After planting a tiny butterfly kiss on the back of it, he drops it
down until he's clutching it over his chest.
After a moment's hesitation, he whispers, "I'm sorry Mulder
didn't come back for you."
I smile in the darkness, feeling his heart beating
strongly beneath my palm. Giving
him a peck on his cheek, I sigh, "I'm not."
Friday, May 17, 2002
7:47 A.M.
Scully's bedroom
I awake to discover that I'm alone in the bed.
Running my hand over the spot where Frohike lay sleeping not more
than six hours earlier, I curse in disbelief.
I just can't believe he's done it to me again!
Next time, I WILL use the handcuffs, so help me God!
I'm not even bothering with the Three Stooges this time around.
I'm getting Jimmy on the phone and he's going to contact Yves and
she's going to track him down--AGAIN!--and then I'm going to kick his ass
royally!
I charge out of the bedroom only to discover the
pleasant smell of fresh-brewed coffee wafting through the apartment.
As my brain is processing that, I also discern the faint aroma of
waffles blended with it. Following
my nose, I make my way to the kitchen, where a still-pajama'd Frohike is
busy at the stove. He's
whistling softly as he putters between the counter and the fridge, taking
time in between to rain little butterfly kisses on William, who's sitting
in his high-chair already at work on a waffle of his own.
Mel has cut it up into little bite-size pieces, which William is
attempting to eat with his fingers. Consequently,
he's got syrup on his face, on his clothes, in his hair--and the biggest
grin from ear to ear.
The little tyke, in fact, ruins my snooping by
gurgling, "MA! MA! MA!" and waving his syrup-covered hands in
the air.
The commotion alerts Mel to my presence.
"Dana? What are
you doing up?"
I cross my arms over my chest and in a mock-stern
voice, I respond, "I could ask you the same question."
He gives me a knowing smile.
"You thought I ditched you again, didn't you?"
"You have a track record now, Mel," I
remind him snidely. "I'm
going to have you on a short leash for a while."
"Well, for your information, this little guy
here," he indicates, tenderly running his hand over William's sticky
head, "woke up hungry about a half-hour ago.
You were sleeping so soundly I guess you didn't hear him."
"No, I guess I didn't," I reply, slightly
embarrassed. Yesterday was a
very stressful day, and once I got to sleep, I had seriously crashed.
Actually, I'm amazed at how good Mel is functioning this morning. .
.he should be three sheets to the wind and still sleeping it off.
"Yeah, well, that's what I figured, and since I
didn't want to bother you. . ." He
lets the sentence die out and, with a shrug, turns his attention to the
waffle machine. With his back
to me, he continues, "Now, if you'll just head on back to bed, maybe
I can finish my little surprise."
"And that would be?" I tease, playfully.
"Why, breakfast in bed, of course," he
smiles over his shoulder, then goes back to his cooking tasks.
"Really?"
"Hey, I've got some major suckin' up to do.
Gotta start somewhere, right?"
I watch him for a moment, as he places the fresh-made
waffles on a plate, then pours some more batter into the machine and
closes the lid. Everything
seems like it's back to normal--at least on the outside.
But I want to be sure. I
NEED to be sure. "So,
you're staying?" I inquire, softly.
He turns away from the appliance to face me; leaning
against the counter, he answers just as softly, "If you want me
to."
Stepping forward, I cup his very stubbly face in my
hands (oh, BOY, does he need a shave!) and sigh, "Yeah, I really want
you to," before leaning in for a kiss.
It's brief and gentle, just his warm lips pressing mine, just
enough to seal the deal--just enough to start the healing.
His arms encircle my waist as mine slip around his neck; we hug
each other for a few moments, and I feel an involuntary shiver go down my
back at the thought that I almost lost this.
"You okay, honey?" he asks, concerned.
"Yeah, I just. . .Mel, don't you EVER do that to
me again, okay?" I beseech. "If
you have any questions or any doubts about our relationship, PLEASE talk
to me."
"I promise, sweetheart," he shushes.
"I'll never ditch you again.
I swear."
I take a deep, relieved breath.
"I'm going to hold you to that.
And after breakfast, we're going to have that talk."
Looking him in the eye, I promise, "We'll get through this,
Mel. Everything's going to be
okay. WE'RE going to be
okay."
He runs a caressing hand down my cheek and smiles.
"Yeah, I know."
I rest my head on his shoulder and just savor his
embrace for a few moments before I hesitantly broach the subject that has
caused so many hurt feelings over the past 36 hours.
"Mel, what about Mulder?"
"What about him?"
"Well, he's my best friend.
I can't just leave him out in the cold.
I want him to be a part of our lives and a part of William's life.
It would be good for both of them.
You saw the two of them together."
Mel tenderly strokes my hair, soothing me.
"Honey, Mulder's my friend too, you know.
And yes, seeing the way he and Billy interacted the other
night--they need each other. Besides,
it'll give us an extra babysitter on call.
Just promise me one thing."
I give him a grateful smile.
"What's that?"
"If I ever act like a jealous jackass again,
you'll put me in my place."
I laugh at that.
"And you know I can do it."
He groans painfully, "Ohhhh, yeah. . .all too
well." We stand there
like that, simply holding each other, and I feel so fulfilled.
This is all I want in life--Mel and Billy, and maybe some fresh
waffles. As if he can read my
mind, he gives me a pat on the fanny and orders, "Now, get on back in
bed--breakfast is almost ready."
I ignore his command and instead go to my son,
planting a kiss on his syrup-slicked cheek.
He gives me a huge sticky grin and shoves a piece of waffle in my
face. Graciously accepting it,
I pop it in my mouth. Oh,
yeah. 'Martha Frohike' strikes
again. Stepping back over to
the counter where Mel is busy pouring a cup of coffee, I kiss HIS cheek
and remind him, "Extra syrup on my waffles."
He gives me a big smile.
"You got it, Angel."
"Oh, and Mel?" I call out over my shoulder.
"Yeah?"
I flash him a mischievous grin.
"YOU'RE giving William his bath today."
He looks over at his gooey child, makes a face and
sighs dramatically, "Yes, ma'am."
I'm still laughing as I crawl back into bed to await
my first of many 'make-up' breakfasts.
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